I dread the holidays-and it's not due to food
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Holidays are awful for me. I know that many people struggle with this too. I used to love the holidays. From Halloween onward, I was in my element. I decorated like mad, cooked and baked and shared my goodies, had parties, went to parties, thoughtfully shopped for everyone (and on a budget but that was part of my fun, finding thoughtful gifts that didn't cost much) and enjoyed it all. I didn't even really struggle with a weight gain during the holidays. I was too busy running around and burning off calories. Then things changed. Family rifts, divorce, moves...
It's too much to write but those of you who have experienced a loss, whether it be loss of a marriage, a family member, a job, a home, a rift in the family, a move across country away from family or something else that changes everything, you probably understand. Of course, I am sure that there are some who have experienced a loss and still manage to have the same upbeat holidays you always had. I would love for you to share how you do it. Or maybe some of you never had them so you don't miss anything. For those of us who feel the loss so much more at this time of year, it is hard. I keep saying I want to just go to some tropical island from now until January but you can't run from your pain really. It just goes with you.
So I am trying to manage. In fact, I do just that. I manage to get through. I get a meal on the table. I give thanks for what blessings I have. I smile. I decorate for Christmas (not nearly like I used to, it's just not the same fun) I shop for special gifts and find some joy in the giving by buying for those less fortunate. It is just such a relief when it's all over.
I can't wait for the day when the new situation becomes the new normal. I suppose I need to be more proactive and make it so. It really does all come down to a mindset doesn't it?