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Old Dog trying New Tricks

Sunday, November 21, 2010


I'm supposed to go register for school tomorrow & I'm starting to panic for whatever reason. This is such a huge step for me - a housebound-selfemployed/housew
ife/mother for the last 20 years. And I've been ok with with it mentally up to this point - taking it ONE step at a time. But the last few days, I think being weak from this cold, I've started getting a little bit fearful. Have been trying to decide whether to only take ONE class, or all 3 at one time - the whole thing is ONLY ONE SEMESTER. It would be good, especially starting in the middle of the year, to get it ALL done, ya know? Instead of dragging it out until next DECEMBER. I'm just so unsure of my ability to learn this stuff. Alot of people say, "It CAN be done!", while others, like my sister, say, "Ooooh.. you better be carrreful.... When I took JUST ONE COURSE, I like to NEVER have gotten all the homework done. It was AWFUL!!! I'd work for 6 and 8 hours a day, & it was grueling!!" (accounting) She is a very "cautious" person, (& negative), & perhaps didn't have the best home situation for what she was trying to do either. I know all this. But then I wonder, will "I" have the discipline & mental capability? I'm going to be 51 years old NEXT WEEK - egad. lol That's another reason I don't want to drag this out.

Also, I've had an extremely stress filled year, from helping care for my aging father & then his death, to 2 Major family splits w/much animosity (not with my husband, ok), to a Chapter 7 bankruptcy, which we are in the middle of now. We go for our creditors meeting on the 30th, which is my husband's birthday. Mine is the day before, on the 29th. I sure wish I could have gotten this overwith before that. I guess I'll just be glad to have it done by Christmas, right.

Oh - my Health, you say? Huh...how bout that. I was on a good streak until the last 2 or 3 weeks, & I like totally fell off the wagon. And then got sick. I know I have to take care of myself if I'm going to pull any of this off.

Oh yes - the 23 lb turkey - got to go get THAT out of the freezer - maybe my brain is still working a little bit - I remembered that! There'll be 6 or 7 of us for Tday - alot less than many have to cook for, but more than I am used to. If I can just get over this cold & get the house cleaned up!

I'm rambling, so I'll quit now. Just feeling kind of overwhelmed, fearful & weak this morning.

Jenn
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  • NOLAZYBUTT110
    Your probably just anxious and I will bet you will be fine. But taking on school is hard for anyone. But actually easy for an older person, your not so easily intimidated! I am sure its all worry under the bridge by now and your doing great! Hope ist not too many classes where you have to read!

    Hope that Turkey turned out all right!

    Everything will be fine, just take one day at a time and dont fret, call on G*D (Pray) that he helps you, and he will! Pace yourself, get organized for time in doing "homework"! Dont worry! By the way what classes will you be taking? But I would just take one day or classs at a time, if I am already over loaded! Unless its cheaper for you to take a full load of courses. I think you can still take up to 6 for the price of four! Take courses you can take a pass or fail grade. Because sometimes its just as cheap to take a full semester of classes. And if you take a pass or fail grade, you wont have to worry about so much "stuff". I am sure you can handle it no matter what! You sound like a tough bird! Just take one day at a time. Take shortcuts! Pace your reading! And look at it this way, all that walking to class will be your exercise time! Good luck!
    3545 days ago
  • SAL1512
    Just tapping you on the shoulder to remind you that YOU CAN DO IT!
    All it takes is belief in yourself!
    Your plan is good.
    Got for it!
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    3586 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/30/2010 3:29:55 PM
  • DOOBRIE
    I think you should go for all three - I'm sure you can do it. Hope that cold clears up soon. I'm sure that's what is making you feel so down and fearful.

    Good luck for today!

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    Doobs
    3595 days ago
  • no profile photo CD863863
    Take a deep breath, and make a list.

    I think going to school is a big step, but how exciting!

    Hope you feel better soon.

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    3595 days ago
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