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Eight months ... so long and yet so short a time

Friday, December 03, 2010

Yesterday I came to Spark for the first time since April. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't had the time since then -- I've had down time, and time I've spent on the computer. I just haven't been actively pursuing my fitness goals.

At the end of April I started working as a cook for a golf club. This turned into a 40-hour a week job, on top of school. That was an adjustment! Even though I theoretically had more time when school ended for the term, I was more than willing to use those days as days off. In fact, I'd say that I needed the days off. Then, in September, school started again and so did the time crunch.

My job is now over for the season, so I only have school and legal work. I *do* have legal work, but it's not as physically demanding/exhausting as working in a kitchen is. For the first time in ages, I feel like I'm capable of paying attention to my health and fitness. At the same time, though, I'm incredibly scared/resistant.

Working in a kitchen was incredibly physically demanding. I built muscles from actual use, not strength training. I started looking much trimmer, even though I didn't lose pounds, because I built muscle as I lost fat. I needed to eat much more salt than I used to, just to keep from being dehydrated. And now ... that's over for the moment.

So, now, I need to start intentionally exercising again. I'm no longer on my feet, moving and lifting for 40 hours a week. I need to work my body to keep those fitness gains from being lost again. That's sort of scary right now. I feel like I don't know where to start, though I know that's not actually true. I feel lost and confused, though I have plenty to keep me busy.

I'm also up 10 lbs from where I was in April.

I know why -- I'm eating salt and not sweating it out, so I'm retaining water like a sponge. I also still have the muscle I built, but am regaining the fat on top of it. I'm worried that I'm on the path to where I was 5 years ago, and am letting that paralyze me. I'm compulsively eating again, after months of being abstinent. And so I'm back here, to, to try to get myself moving in a positive direction again.
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    emoticon back! I was so happy to see the notice about your blog in my email box today!

    It sounds like you've had quite an interesting 8 months! That's great that you've built up muscles from working in the kitchen! You'll probably have to come up with some kind of strength training plan to maintain those muscles. SP has some articles/resources that might help. You might want to see if there are any suggestions of strength-training/fitness plans specifically for chefs online. You never know what you might find!

    Good luck getting back on track! I know you can do it! emoticon

    - Karen
    3792 days ago
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