Earlier today, I posted the following update as my status on Facebook, "Deondra OntothenextOne Wardelle is soooo thankful for the Rev. Dr. Kevin Wayne Cosby...he ALWAYS has a tailor-made Word for me in due season! WHEN A DEFEAT IS A VICTORY! (Genesis 32:9-11, 20-32 NLT)"
Rev' talked about the importance of change and for change to be effective, it must not start externally but we should focus on our *interior renovations* (i.e. our mental agenda/mind, heart, habits, worries & etc.)
Pastor used the story of Jacob (the trickster) as an illustration of turning defeat into a victory, because throughout Jacob's life he had tried to do things HIS way. That is until he finally reached a point where he had grown sick and tired of being sick and tired and turned to the Lord!
* Jacob was a DISTURBED man (so he prayed to God [vs. 9-11]);
*Jacob was a DEFEATED man (he wrestled with "The Man" until daybreak [vs. 24-25]);
*Jacob was a DEPENDENT man (he refused to let go until he received his blessing [vs. 26])
Well, like Jacob I too have grown sick and tired of being sick and tired with how I have picked up some "Anti-Spark" Habits AND how I seem to be lightyears away from some of my life goals.
The question is, what's next..what am I gonna do about it?
Am I going to veg' out on my comfy sofa with my favorite Sweet and Salty KRYPTONITE and have a "Whoa is D710DANCE Party"? I THINK NOT! God has brought me too far to give up now. I know what I need to do and it's time to be like Nike and JUST DO IT!!!
I don't know why I seem to believe that I'm super bad and can accomplish any of my goals on my own. Now more than ever, I am totally leaning and depending on GOD...to get me through ALL of life's challenges. And like Jacob, I will refuse to let go until He blesses me, so that I can be a blessing to others (i.e. MY BOOK)!
I will also resume SPARKing, which means I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY MUST use my Nutrition Tracker and check in at least once a day with my Beloved CARDIO CONNOISSEURS.
So I said all of this to say. I'm getting BACK TO BASICS and I'm still ON TO THE NEXT ONE!
Who's with me on turning a DEFEAT into a VICTORY?!
01/02/2011 My LAST Before Picture...YA HEARD?!
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths. Don't be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the LORD and turn your back on evil. Then you will gain renewed health and vitality." Proverbs 3:5-8 NLT