Friday, January 07, 2011
The words "rats", has special meaning to me - LOL.
Mostly, when I say the word by itself, it makes me think of my dear little Dad, who passed away last year. Towards the end, the doctor decided to try ONE MORE blood transfusion to see if it helped him. She left it to ME to tell him the news. Even after being used to him for 3 years, I was still nervous that he would be angry with me. But after telling him.... he said..... "RATS!!!" Cracked me up ok. It was totally unexpected, as he was 93 years old & I'd never heard him use the word. It had mainly been used I think by my brother & I because of being introduced through the Charlie Brown cartoons. Anyway - I will never forget that.
Also, the word "Rats" was a word I swore off of for awhile - after pulling a DEAD RAT out from beside my refrigerator with my vacuum cleaner hose. Yes - I screamed. And did a little dance. I decided maybe I should stop saying the word so much - perhaps it was ATTRACTING the darn things. While it HAD provided a little excitement for my Dog, while it was still breathing & rustling around, it was more excitement than I cared for.
Now. I am back to "Rats." Another exercise busting INJURY. Nothing catastrophic, like broken bones or anything, but a good solid GROIN PULL. Which, due to compensating & going on, as started to affect the other side as well.
I've had this before & it takes FOREVER to heal. And a complete STOP of any exercise using anything below the waist. Used to be I could walk a little, as long as I didn't do ANY twisting movement.
What has brought it on each time I've had it?? Are you ready for this? Doing Leslie Sansone indoor walking tapes. How, on God's green earth, could ANYBODY injure themselves doing THAT!? And no, it's not from doing it every day. Only ONCE will do it. And then it's almost impossible to get rid of. All I have to do is twist the slightest little bit & SPRROOOING goes the short but shooting pain through half my body. Difference now is, I get lasting discomfort AFTER the sharp pain. IE: I'm getting older & not healing as fast.
And rather than boosting my appetite, exercise actually seems to HELP with it. So, I'm having more trouble than ever keeping a calorie deficit.
I haven't made a New Year's resolution for.... maybe EVER. But I got coaxed into "setting a goal" this year, see, & that's all it took. I planned to work on what I could while injured, but after several days, have yet to do so, & now the weekend is upon me - my worst behavior days. Well Fiddle-Dee-Dee. And Rats too.
I usually can't think up any words of wisdom to say to people who "quit" or "give up", & I'm not saying I am. Or... I just "can't help myself...." But I AM a bit agrivated that seems like every time I have a thought in my head that I AM going to succed this time & maybe PUSH just a little bit.... BAM... some kind of injury. And it's not always exercise related either. Once it was slipping on grandson's bandana on the kitchen floor, landing on my left arm - Oh thank you God that somebody had recently reminded me to NOT straighten your arms in a fall. So - I got a bad "jamming" through my elbow & shoulder, but no breaks apparently. But couldn't do anything with my left arm for months. (had just decided to start testing my limits & increasing weight in my ST)
I just wanted to make a little headway & get some of my good habits back before I start school in 2 weeks.
Ok - enough babbling for today.