I am overwhelmed....
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I am overwhelmed with gratitude, positive energy and appreciation. My heart is filled with love. I am truly a blessed person. It's hard to put into words just how wonderful I am feeling. I could just burst! LOL
January is often a dreary and long month....the holidays have passed and new year resolutions have been made (and often already broken!). In the Northeast, it's usually cold and snowy and it's dark when you wake up and often dark when you get home from work. January is also my birthday month and the 'anniversary' of when I took back control of my life and health and started exercising and eating better. I knew back in 2007 when I started to get fit again that my life would change. But, I could never have imagined or even hoped for just how much it would change and for the better. My life isn't perfect and I still face challenges and I'm still not at my goal, but that's o.k. I'm learning and more importanly I'm living. I'm not putting off anthing until....until I reach my goal weight, until I reach a certain size, etc. That used to be how I lived...I'd put things off until. Of course, 'until' didn't happen and life passed me by. No more.
Last Friday, I turned 41 and it was without a doubt the best birthday ever! My BRB (best running buddy) and very close friend threw me a surprise party. It was amazing and I was completely surprised. I didn't expect it all. Not only because we were in the midst of a snowstorm (thanks Mother Nature!), but because I never even hoped that anyone would do something so nice for me. I was surrounded by 30+ friends, who braved the snow, wind, and treacherous roads to celebrate my birthday (and received the best notes from those who couldn't make it). Seeing everyone and having them say such nice things to me and about me meant more than I could ever say. I go into the 'ugly cry' just thinking about it! I have never felt so special and loved. As if that wasn't enough (and it was way more than enough!), my wonderful friends gave me a gift certificate that will more than cover my plane ticket to the Disney Marathon in January 2012, which will be over my birthday weekend. I was undone by that and completely overcome with emotion...yep, a full blown ugly cry!! LOL.
It was the best night and one I will never forget. I will carry all of the kind words and everyone's thoughtfulness with me and draw on that whenever my worst critic (ME!) starts to take over and focus on anything negative. I love that I'm surrounded by positive people and their energy. I am so grateful to running, my running group, and No Boundaries because that is how I met these friends. It's so hard for me to believe that I've only known some of these friends for less than 2 years and the rest I've only known for a year or less. Yet, they are an integral part of my life and can't imagine my life without them. So glad I don't have to. Yep, I am truly blessed and I won't ever forget that.