Thursday, January 20, 2011
Yesterday's work was to get a goal buddy. I have one, who's terrific, and whom I check in with each day via the site. I also have my wonderful spark teammates and teammates from a long-time e-list. I can say, if you don't have a check-in partner, try to find one, because it can be really helpful.
Today's work is a visualization exercise. You're supposed to close your eyes and envision how you are once you've reached your goal, and to "picture all the steps you took to reach that point and believe in yourself".
Now, I'm not sure about the believing in yourself part about reaching the goal. There's the "you can do it" factor, and there are theories that you have to KNOW you can do it before you CAN do it, but I already feel that I pretty much do believe in myself. I believe I can do what I need to. I'm a little less clear on what I need to do. I know I need more consistency, and I'm working on that. I also know that if I'm too rigid, I'll break. There are some good things about getting older - knowing thyself is a biggie.
I'm not perfect. I never will be. And I'm okay with that.
In the visualization, I can either be swimming in tropical waters, wearing the same size bathing suit I had when I was first married. I weighed 148, and that was a good weight for me, despite my being 5'3". That's where I'd like to be again. In the other visualization, I'm wearing size 12 jeans and chasing after a toddler - keeping up with a toddler - a grandchild or the equivalent. These are endpoints for me. Or maybe I'm climbing up the steps of Mayan ruins without being winded.
To picture how I got there, I see the following steps:
1. Consistency in exercise and eating habits and journaling and water.
2. Slowly increasing exercise.
3. Slowly decreasing calories.
4. In all likelihood, cutting out one or more foods (I'm being checked for a variety of food allergies currently)
5. Going on enzyme therapy/continuing on enzyme therapy.
6. Maybe taking more courageous steps towards letting go of Western medicine and embracing the Eastern medicine that's been helping me slowly but surely.
7. Perhaps becoming more serious about my meditation practice.
8. Continuing to be on Spark every. single. day. and checking in with my support systems.
9. Eating fewer and fewer processed foods, if any.
I guess that's about it. I'm probably missing something. What steps do you need to get to your goal?