A cry for HELP...NOT a positive blog...enter at your own risk!
Friday, January 21, 2011
I need help and I need it badly. Some of you may not know me, but I am usually perky with a smile on my face always willing to help ANYONE that needs it.
I am in such a deep funk I am considering going back on meds at least until Spring arrives. Before our Disney trip at Thanksgiving I was on top of the world with a toned body and metabolism that wouldn't quit because I was working out every day and totally loving my running. Now, with the COLD GRAY winter I just want to hibernate.
Christmas took alot our of me emotionally because I really missed my Mom this year more than ever. That brought me down further. A few weeks ago our office moved to a new location and that really kicked my OCD back into high gear. Our workload at the office is down right now and that always gives me great anxiety as hubby and I have alot of $$$ invested. This happens every winter and you would think I would be used to it. Evidently not.
I suffered from a bout with the flu this week and that did not help at all. I am still trying to get back physically from that debacle. Each morning I wake up with new hope only to be back in my dark place by noon. My eating is crap, Coors Light is becoming my friend and solace and sleeping is great comfort.
I have my Princess HM in 5 weeks and it is my ray of sunshine. Unfortunately, my running is suffering because of the weather. yes, I know I can get all layered up and just head out the door. That is so easy to say...doing it is the hard part. Our streets are FROZEN with ICE right now. Do you want to go out in that crap? Go for it. Knock yourself out. Enjoy!
Now that I have all of that toxic crap spilled emptied from my head, I come to my friends with a cry for help. I need someone to help me out of this deep hole and I beg for a helping hand. Please!
My plan for today is to get on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes after work. That is, if I don't talk myself out of it by then. I asked Dr. Lake (my A.R.T. chiro) last night if I could possibly lose my running fitness and she reassured me I am not and that it is in fact beneficial that I am taking this break.
Another positive is that I have a pair of SportHill XC insulated pants coming and a few fellow Spark runners that live in this dreadful cold weather swear by them. I also have a Buff neck gaiter coming (Google it) to replace the scarf I had been using that is a pain in the neck (pun intended LOL). In other words, I am trying to streamline the process of getting out the door to run this winter. I am trying to get rid of layers and the pants will do that. Its worth it to me.
If anyone has any ideas to help me climb out of this hole PLEASE let me know. I want to get back into a fitness groove and no...I don't want to do an hour of fitness every day. I don't roll that way. Just 10 minutes a day is the start I need and let the Spark build from there. Its the getting started that is the hard part.
THANK YOU so much for reading this blog if you made it this far. Now you know why I I have been so quiet here and on Facebook. I have been busy wallowing away the hours having a pity party while hibernating in my cave.
I will be back.