The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly
Monday, February 07, 2011
Let's start with the Good:
I am 225 days, 32 weeks, without any soda.
I am still logging into SparkPeople and usually logging my food.
I am doing better with getting more sleep, usually about 3 nights a week of 8 hours or more.
I am succeeding fairly well in appreciating all that is good in my life.
I am not getting enough activity.
I am eating too many calories most days.
I still sometimes turn to food for comfort.
Before Christmas I was down to 221. I have crept back up to 230.
I still struggle with moments where I REALLY want to throw in the towel and buy a Mountain Dew and let it all go to hell.
I'm starting to lose my optimism.
I WANT to be smaller, to have fewer aches and pains, to live a long and healthy life for my baby. But my body is always telling me I'm hungry, and it's so damn hard to continuously deny myself that really full feeling. I'm hungry right now, and I'm already over my calories for today. That's a discouraging place for me.
So what's left to do? "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming." Because giving up CAN'T be an option. Maybe I am still eating too much, and not always healthy choices, but I have to believe I am being kinder to my body than when I was drinking 60 or more ounces of soda every day. All that simple sugar is NOT healthy, regardless of where you stand on high fructose corn syrup. And diabetes does run in my family. I may not have the right answer right now, but what I'm doing is better than what I was doing. So I'll just keep moving forward, searching for what will work for me long term.