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The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Monday, February 07, 2011

Let's start with the Good:
I am 225 days, 32 weeks, without any soda.
I am still logging into SparkPeople and usually logging my food.
I am doing better with getting more sleep, usually about 3 nights a week of 8 hours or more.
I am succeeding fairly well in appreciating all that is good in my life.

The Bad:
I am not getting enough activity.
I am eating too many calories most days.
I still sometimes turn to food for comfort.

The Ugly:
Before Christmas I was down to 221. I have crept back up to 230.
I still struggle with moments where I REALLY want to throw in the towel and buy a Mountain Dew and let it all go to hell.
I'm starting to lose my optimism.

I WANT to be smaller, to have fewer aches and pains, to live a long and healthy life for my baby. But my body is always telling me I'm hungry, and it's so damn hard to continuously deny myself that really full feeling. I'm hungry right now, and I'm already over my calories for today. That's a discouraging place for me.

So what's left to do? "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming." Because giving up CAN'T be an option. Maybe I am still eating too much, and not always healthy choices, but I have to believe I am being kinder to my body than when I was drinking 60 or more ounces of soda every day. All that simple sugar is NOT healthy, regardless of where you stand on high fructose corn syrup. And diabetes does run in my family. I may not have the right answer right now, but what I'm doing is better than what I was doing. So I'll just keep moving forward, searching for what will work for me long term.
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  • MITIME4ME
    I wish I had a magic wand to make this easier, but the best I can do is send emoticon your way. Oh, and kudos to you for being long-term soda free! It's not an easy 'vice' to avoid, especially in some social situations.

    Since I'm floundering a bit myself right now, I'm probably not the best one to give advice *sigh*. Maybe it's time to start over and focus--truly focus--on just one or two things at a time? At least for me, it seems to make it less overwhelming to try and re-establish good habits and banish less desirable habits. If you are always hungry, maybe adding more fiber-rich foods to your diet and increasing your water intake would help fill you up and take the edge off.

    As far as exercise goes, I don't know what's available in your area. If motivation is a factor, is there some kind of class your DD might enjoy that you could take with her? For instance, around here there are Mom 'n Me classes for toddlers that involve a lot of movement, parent-assisted swim classes, and family karate that starts at 3. If something like that is an option, you get quality time for the two of you, you get to wear her out and let her have fun at the same time, and external motivation from her to prompt you to show up each week.

    No matter what you decide, I have faith that you'll succeed. Just stay positive! One thing you really have going for you is that you understand that the weight didn't hop on overnight and that it won't hop off overnight either. emoticon
    3584 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5707126
    It is all a process of learning and making adjustments to fit our own situation and body. emoticon One step at a time!
    3584 days ago
  • SUSANISTHIN34
    I love your line of 'Just keep swimming, just keep swimming'!! My two-year old daughter is really into that movie! It's the best motto to live by right now. No matter what, do not give up on yourself. There is a smaller version of you trying like heck to get out, and believe me, she will!!! Always know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers--we can do this!!! emoticon emoticon
    3584 days ago
  • CHRISAHAHN
    Little by little. The more days you succeed, the more days you will succeed. Habits are hard to change - you've had years to cement them. Usually people can't change overnight or over a month.

    Good luck!
    3585 days ago
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