Warning: Not a happy blog today
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Not feeling as good today as I was yesterday. I think part of it is the chemo, and part of it is the weather. It's the 3rd day in a row that it has been bitterly cold. I haven't been out since I came home from chemo on Tuesday, not even for the mail. But tomorrow it's supposed to start warming up, so definitely tomorrow I will go out for the mail.
Today I have been so tired, even though I slept enough hours last night. Having some stomach upset and feeling crampy; from my gastroparesis flaring up because of the chemo. Feeling cranky too, and I have to admit, a little sorry for myself too; there have been some tears shed today. I was also thinking about how this has been the 3rd chemo regimen I have been on since April; and the only break I've had from it is that month off I had in August. So I guess I am entitled to have a day to be grumpy. But I am going to try hard to limit my pity party to only this day. Tomorrow, I am determined to wake up with a better attitude.
I am also still mourning the death of my friend Toni; I know that is going to take some time to make peace with that; she hasn't even been gone a month yet. I am still in the anger stage with that, right now I can't over the unfairness of it.
Feeling achy all over today too, probably from the weather. Because of the way I am feeling today, I did not do any kind of workout. But that is ok; I had a good 8 day stretch where I did at least something every day. I will get back into my routine tomorrow.
I do have some things to look forward to that I know will cheer me up. We are supposed to get up to the upper 30's this weekend, so there is a good chance I can get out for walks those days. And on Monday, I am getting together with a group of friends for a Valentine's Day lunch. Tuesday, I might be going to hear a speaker that will be talking about cancer and alternative medicine.