24 FEB 11
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Reaching Levels of Frustration
Why can’t I lose this weight? A few months ago, I was working out twice a day, watching what I ate and I was losing inches, but not weight. I tried to convince myself that was better because it meant I was losing fat, but it wasn’t enough inches. It was enough to say “Hey, these pants fit a little loose.” But it was never enough to say “Oh my, I’ve gone down a pant size.”
Some people told me I was working out too much and not taking in enough calories. Well, my personal life has changed and my current situation doesn’t allow me to work out twice a day. Now I think the culprit may be that I’m really not watching what I eat. I try. I guess I just don’t try hard enough.
Why can’t I do this? It’s not like I don’t have motivators. I do. I have two little boys that I need to be around for. I have a different life ahead of me I didn’t plan for that I think I could really enjoy and be happy in. I have goals and dreams to fulfill as a new single woman. I want to travel. I want to be involved in life instead of being the wall flower because I feel so unattractive because of the weight I carry. I don’t want to live like my dad. He has difficulty walking. I’m starting to feel those effects of the weight I carry. My hips hurt. My hips shouldn’t hurt at this young age!
WHY CAN’T I JUST DO THIS?