I never realized how much shopping used to drain me. I would normally find really cute clothes, wished that I didn't have to shop in the 'women's plus' section and wonder why they didn't make larger versions of 'normal sized' clothes. What do clothing designers think that all large people want to wear shirts that look like a tent? That they don't want something that shows off their cleavage? That they have no style or care what they wear?
Let me give you some background. I have a lot of clothes. When I say a lot, I mean that I have to normally swap out my winter & summer clothes cause they won't all fit in my closet at the same time. I love clothes. I always have, I always will. I also love shoes but I will save that for another blog entry.
I think that I used to just be so relieved when I would find something in my size that I actually liked I would buy a few of them in different colors if that were an option. I would be confined to the XXL section of Target with those pesky bright pink tags for the shirts & I would find myself shuffling through the women's plus section at Ross only to find shirts that really no one should wear, ever.
My style is much closer to boutique than mainstream. I don't like looking plain, I love patterns, ruffles and something that you wouldn't see just anyone wearing. The problem was, finding unique shirts in plus-sizes was draining. I didn't realize that until last night when I took a spur-of-the-moment shopping trip to Ross.
I had not been shopping for a while for anything that new for myself. I didn't want to buy a ton of cute new clothes at a certain size in case that meant that I got stuck there. That somehow buying new clothes that fit well would cement me at that weight forever. My mind changed when I realized that my shirts are no longer flattering since they hang off my body in weird ways and make me look larger than I actually am since they are so roomy now.
My starting sizes were:
Pants: (I didn't actually try any on, but I have 14s that look amazing and even a 12 in another brand that are spanking hot)
Dress: 13 (in Juniors - 14 in women's was too large)
I tried on at least 10 shirts that all looked amazing last night. Before I started losing weight, I remember wondering why skinny girls didn't have 1 million clothing items. I was sure that I would if I was their size and could fit into and buy whatever I wanted. I realized last night, that because of my difficulty to find cute clothes I was 'hoarding' the good ones that I did find. 'Hoarding' for lack of a better word (no not hoarding like the show) but it was such a rare occasion that I would find anything that 1.FIT & 2.I actually liked - I would HAVE to have it.
I only got 3 shirts last night (I'm still a girl on a budget). The ones that I didn't totally LOVE I put back. I conquered that big girl clothes hoarder since I know that a large shirt is not my end size, and I don't intend on stocking my wardrobe until I reach my goal.
But I still want to look fabulous along the way :) I found a beautiful, cute, dainty white sundress that was a size 13 in juniors. I also grabbed a size 14 women's just in case it didn't fit, but it did, and looked amazing, and I bought it (totally justifiable since I am wearing it wine tasting this weekend hehe).
I will post pictures soon of the shirts & dress that I actually bought but in the meantime:
Cute new gym onsom = me going to the gym more
Shirt that didn't make the cut
Cherry blossoms for springtime! Yes I painted them myself :)
Ready for the summertime!
Foggy morning drive :)