the best I have to offer right now - my honesty
Monday, March 07, 2011
I finally figured out why I've been so shy about jumping back into blogging here at sparkpeople. When I sit down and look at where I'm at, where I've been, where I want to be ... I feel like I have absolutely zilch to offer to anyone. Who wants to read a bunch of empty promises that I keep making to myself over and over?
Well, maybe that's not what it's about at all. The promises haven't been empty. Looking back at them now, they feel empty because I never followed through on any of them at that time. But really ... I'm following through right now, aren't I? This is a lifetime. It's not something I'm going to get done in a year, month, week, day ... I keep coming back.
And I'm painfully honest in what I share. I can only work though the underlying issues if I'm willing to be honest with myself and dig deep. Writing is the best way I know how to get there. So it's all out here in the open, for anyone to see. All in the hopes that maybe ... just maybe ... someone else can say "yeah! I know what you're talking about!" And in that case, either they can add some insight to what I'm dealing with or they can take something away from what I've shared.
I want to be honest with myself and everyone who may (or may not) be reading. I want to learn from this.
I want this cycle to end.