I'm pretty scared
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I am terrified. As of this morning there are over 700 people on this team and they are all here because of Mommyland. They're all looking to me to help them, to help lead them through these challenges. And I am so scared I'm going to let them down.
The truth is I need your help, MommyLand. I've struggled with this for so long and it seems like its finally possible for me, but I don't think I can do it without you. I need this team and I need this blog and I need Mommyland and Kate "the Hooker" Mclovin more than anyone could ever need me back.
I'm truly doing this for you guys but I'm doing it for me, too. And my kids who deserve a better example that I'm giving them. And my sweet husband who seems to love me and want to squeeze me no matter what I look like. But I'm scared of failing.
I promise to work really hard to make this a great experience for you. I promise to do the best I can. I promise to put my kids and family first and that will sometimes mean taking a day off. I promise to be totally honest and accountable to everyone. I promise to support you. I promise never to be a Judgey McJudgerson. If you have PCOS or are dealing with wonky insulin, I promise to share that fight with you and tell you everything I'm trying and how it works.
If you're one the people who stepped up to take a leadership role here: YCA, Courtney, Ricky, Dana, Kate (the other one who's a ninja - not a hooker), PirateGirlMel, DugieStoner and DTWAMF - I promise to kiss you arses and shower you with my gratitude. You have no idea how grateful I am and how much I love you and want to get drunk with you and maybe start crying because I can't really express myself and then maybe I would sing something but you would all ask to me to stop because it was awkward but also funny because I can't sing.
Y'all, These women volunteered to lead the 100 Day Challenge when we had a couple of hundred people signed up but only 40 active/daily users. We're all so proud and happy to be part of this and marvelling at how big its gotten. If there are some growing pains, please be patient with us.
In any case, I feel better for having told you all this. Let's square up on this challenge and make it our B. If you have a bad day or couple of days, JUST START OVER. I'll do it with you, if you'll do it with me. Wait. That sounded porny. Sorry.