Few steps forward ---- many steps back...

Don't even know where to start - except to say that the last few days have been a disaster.

Eating is horrid, and I have not exercised much.

Typically Saturday and Sundays are off days for me, with my kids crazy schedules - I just can't quite fit it in - so if I do - it's a bonus. We did walk for about 40 minutes (20 min. each way) to our car on Saturday night before and after the NCAA Hockey East Finals...which was a blast. We had nice big greasy burgers for dinner (it was a burger joint - if you want healthy don't go), so I stayed away from all things arena like. Sunday was a wash.

Monday is babysitting day - I did do my bootcamp videos, squats, Quickfire and pushups, but without any cardio I feel like it was a bad day - and food - let's not talk about that.

Monday night we found out that my little man did not make his dream hockey team. It is the team he has been on for 2 years, and this year they cut him. He cried himself to sleep Monday night, and is so sad (this morning was better)....but it sent me into a tailspin - because I think he didn't make it for political reasons more than anything else, and as I find out who is on the team - I think it is more about the fact that someone may not like him vs. his ability - which makes me angry - but I can't do a darn thing about it - except be positive for my little guy and find the silver lining in this whole heartbreak for him.

Tuesday was a continuation of Monday - and NO exercise - period...NONE.....I got a taste of running outside, and going back to the treadmill seemed too horrific. I know I will get there again in the late Fall - but I am now ready for outdoors....

Monday we got 2" of snow, and today into tomorrow they are saying 3-5" of snow....What the heck....enough already.

So today I woke up with a headache. I think it is a migraine, however, hubby had the touch of something or other over the weekend, that gave him a headache, and I am running a slight temp. so it might be that.

I went back to bed after the kids left, and then at 10:00 I decided enough of that - I have to do something - so I tried my new workout video. Bob Harper's Ultimate Cardio Body.....WOW....

I only made it through 30 minutes of the 60, as my head felt as if it were going to pop right off the top of my head....it's hard. But it's my type of workout - it's not dancy....I don't do dancy well. LOTS of lunges and squats, which I need for my running - got to build those muscles to get stronger. There are some arms with weights too, and push ups and lots of high knees. (and that is in the first 30 minutes) I don't know what the 2nd 30 minutes are like.

In that 30 minutes, I burned 215 calories, and I know as I get stronger that burn will increase....I'm happy with that for today -given the status of my head. This is also a workout that I can incorporate better into my running schedule....Insanity was just a little too much for me.

Right now Insanity is at my neighbors house...and she is trying to decide if she likes it....

So there I am - a broken hearted Mom, who really confirmed that I am an emotional eater this week.....I am not looking back at it - just going to keep the truck moving forward - I really should have blogged about all of this Monday - it might have made yesterday better. I was just too busy trying to heal my little guys broken heart.

Now - I think I am going to take another nap and see if I can shake this headache before the kids get home from school.