Back up to 210
Sunday, March 27, 2011
OK flash point has been reached. I'm 15 stone again, 210 lb to those in the US.
I'm tired all the time, I'm working hard, don't really feel much like taking care of myself and can't get myself into a routine to run again. My dodgy knee is still giving me hell. At the moment all I want to do is lose the 10lb that I've put on, get back to feeling good about myself. Anything more seems too much.
I can't really put my finger on what is going on with me. I feel a compulsion to eat. I eat, I'm not hungry but my mind is telling me to put more food in my mouth. So I do. Last night I ate a pasta meal, I was full after, but then I ate a chocolate mint ice cream and a packet of crisps and a mini pot of humous. Why can't I say no? Why am I doing this to myself?
Answers on a postcard please.