I look different on the inside... hahahah
Monday, March 28, 2011
So I read this blog post from a fellow sparker, and she had me ROLLING. She was given a camera by her husband and decided to use it to get a good look at herself, make a few little videos and such..... and took a good look at herself, suprised that that is what other people see. I wondered why that is so funny to me. And I realized that I believe I am quite an attractive, agreeable and through and through lovely person. I like myself a lot. Not in an overdone way. I just don't suffer from the self loathing and disgust many of us women feel towards their bodies. I am not happy about the way I let the pounds creep on or the lack of self control when someone waves unhealthy food in my face and I say "Yeah, I'll have seconds!!! SURE". But it doesn't keep me up at night. One of the big reasons might be that I am married to a man who never once said anything negative about my appearance in the 22 years I have been with him. If my hair stands on end, he believes I am cute and fuzzy, the more I wear his oversized shirts, the happier it makes him because he thinks its adorable, he just makes me feel so loved all the time. Which makes me sad for so many of us who not only struggle with their self image, but who are also bullied (consciously or unconsciously) by family, co workers, well meaning friends, the media or even their own children. That has to stop. We are beautiful, all of us, no matter how we are perceived. So my prayer for today will be that the people who have come together on Spark receive new energy and a more positive outlook and the support they are looking for.