another year passed & still figuring out where i am going
Sunday, April 03, 2011
i am still trying to figure out work, family and weight management. nothing seems to work for me anymore. i know right now i need to worry about eating right than losing weight because i am 13.5 weeks pregnant. i am very happy to have made it through my 1st trimester this time. i am hoping that this time the baby makes it. i have had many set backs in the last few years medically with my eye/facial spasms and ruptured disc. i am hoping that i can finally stick with a core/weight/exercise program like i did before i met my husband.. i need to learn portion control. i also need to learn how to control my stress better. i let work interfere with my everyday living. i want to succeed so bad and do the right thing that i tend to let the little things bug me all the time. i am very hard on myself and therefore i am very hard on others. i expect everyone to deliver when most do not. i need to do what one of my supervisors once told me. that you can win the war without winning every battle. when i know someone is dead wrong i fight tooth and nail proving how they messed up. all this stress is eating at me. i also tend to do this with my husband. i need to stop it. i think if i improved my stress level i might loose some weight. i also need to figure out how to exercise with all of my health issues. my eyes/facial spasms really effected my running. then my ruptured disc in my back ended my running. i loved running. i need to find something other than running i love. it helped me with my stresses. now i miss it. i also need to learn to balance my family/work life and find time for me. Hopefully this year. i will be more successful than the previous few years.
this year i am going to try to be more positive. i am so looking forward to be a mom for the second time. i am hoping that with 2 kids i will learn to leave work at work and enjoy my family. i also want to learn not to try to win every battle. i need to stop emotional eating. i need to find an exercise i love as much as running.
i am looking forward to having a great year.