Monday, April 04, 2011
This is going to be one of those soul revealing blogs that I need to do for me.
This last few years have held so many life changes things in them that I really did not have the chance to deal with them to the depth of which was/is needed. To start off with I lost my sister in 07. She was my closest sibling and it was very unexpected. Then my parents in 09. My mom unexpectedly in Feb and my dad in July. I was very close to both of them. (they were separated, but remained good friends) My dad lived with me and was sick for some time before his passing. I was his care giver well working full time and raising my family. A very busy life.
Then we did a big move from Abbotsford to Campbell River. We had issues with our original contractor who was to build our house and are just now going to be moving in our house this weekend. A whole other load of stress and issues. But, all is good now and I am excited to have my own kitchen again. That is what I have missed most of all. lol...
I had a good life with a great job and amazing friends. I moved to a beautiful place, but starting life from scratch. No friends, no job etc. You get the picture of the nut shell version.
I have had many adjustments and am now seeing that I needed that time and space to heal. I needed time to be able to be honest and deal with my loss honestly and I am having to learn it is okay to have time for me again. Sounds silly, but when you are always busy with others needs you get lost in the shuffle and it was weird to have time and not feel guilty about just doing something for me. Such as going to the gym or for a run or walk.
I had a wonderful opportunity to go to Israel last month and it was another step in the journey that I needed and it was a life changing experience on several levels. I will blog about my trip in my next blog. I plan to blog daily or at least every other day. :)
My goals moving forward are:
Hit the gym 3 days a week and to incorporate ST
Do some form of exercise 30 minutes a day 6 days a week.
Track both food and fitness... This girl needs to go back to the basics. :)
My ramblings for now. It is all becoming clearer and I am truly feeling like a load is lifted and I am seeing a little clearer.