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Monday, April 04, 2011

This is going to be one of those soul revealing blogs that I need to do for me.

This last few years have held so many life changes things in them that I really did not have the chance to deal with them to the depth of which was/is needed. To start off with I lost my sister in 07. She was my closest sibling and it was very unexpected. Then my parents in 09. My mom unexpectedly in Feb and my dad in July. I was very close to both of them. (they were separated, but remained good friends) My dad lived with me and was sick for some time before his passing. I was his care giver well working full time and raising my family. A very busy life.

Then we did a big move from Abbotsford to Campbell River. We had issues with our original contractor who was to build our house and are just now going to be moving in our house this weekend. A whole other load of stress and issues. But, all is good now and I am excited to have my own kitchen again. That is what I have missed most of all. lol...

I had a good life with a great job and amazing friends. I moved to a beautiful place, but starting life from scratch. No friends, no job etc. You get the picture of the nut shell version.

I have had many adjustments and am now seeing that I needed that time and space to heal. I needed time to be able to be honest and deal with my loss honestly and I am having to learn it is okay to have time for me again. Sounds silly, but when you are always busy with others needs you get lost in the shuffle and it was weird to have time and not feel guilty about just doing something for me. Such as going to the gym or for a run or walk.

I had a wonderful opportunity to go to Israel last month and it was another step in the journey that I needed and it was a life changing experience on several levels. I will blog about my trip in my next blog. I plan to blog daily or at least every other day. :)

My goals moving forward are:
Hit the gym 3 days a week and to incorporate ST
Do some form of exercise 30 minutes a day 6 days a week.
Track both food and fitness... This girl needs to go back to the basics. :)

My ramblings for now. It is all becoming clearer and I am truly feeling like a load is lifted and I am seeing a little clearer.

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  • NAN111
    You've been through such a tough time with the losses of those so close to you. Hope this move proves to be a great change in your life. Israel is one the best places I ever had the opportunity to visit and can see why you felt it was life changing. Wishing you the best!
    3687 days ago
    What a rough time for you. Now that some of your stress (the house) is going to be eleviated it's time to make sure you spend sometime on you because you deserve it!

    Looking forward to the blog about your trip!
    3730 days ago
  • ANNE7X7
    I am so happy you are back and finally settling down into your new home!! You deserve to spend time on YOU and I'm glad you are going to make that a priority! It looks like we are both starting from scratch with running, and I hope it's just as fun as last time! Let me know how you are doing!!


    Can't wait to hear about the trip!
    3730 days ago
  • HEATHER1969
    Wow... your blog so hits home with me, the loss, the loosing yourself, the guilt!

    I have family in Campbell River... we go there once or twice a year... will let you know the next time Im there and maybe we can go to the gym together?

    Can't wait to hear about your trip!
    3731 days ago
    I'm sorry you have had so many losses in such a short period of time. Sounds like you are finally taking the necessary steps to take care of your self. Congrats on the new house. And I can't wait to hear about your trip!
    3731 days ago
  • TEKRU1
    It's been a rough few years. I'm glad to hear that you're at a good place now. Looking forward to see you blossom!
    3731 days ago
  • LLTS01
    emoticon back. I can't wait to read about your trip.

    3732 days ago
    Losses like that take a toll. My heart and prayers go out to you.

    We also moved and it has been slow, but I've made new friends, old friends stop and visit when they can,

    The new kitchen here is wonderful, although I had to figure out where to put everything! The kitchen has more counter space, but the cupboards have less room than my old ones. It needed some downsizing, but then with the kids gone and only here for visits we need smaller pans, etc.

    You'll have fun fitting into yours and having everything you need where you want it.

    3732 days ago
    I'm sorry for all you lose and the problems with your house. I'm glad you are healing though. And glad you're getting back on track and in your own kitchen. We all have to do what is necessary to heal and that means emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Glad to hear from you again. Have a good week in your new house and ktichen!
    3732 days ago
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