The Weight Loss Ticker

My weight loss ticker has always been in my head...what do I weigh now...how far is it from where I should be?

Then, when I joined Sparkpeople, I actually got to put one on my page- oh the joy! There were so many fun designs, so many icons to choose from. Would I have my ticker show my actual weight, or would it just show pounds lost? Depending on the weigh in, this is always subject to change! Setting it up was so fun- I got to pick the number where it ends- hmmm....how to decide where I want to go!

It was exciting...and scary...to post that ticker. There it was- my road- where I am now, and where I want to go. That finish line represents so many different things- and to each of us, it is completely different. Mine symbolizes success- that I could set out a plan, follow through, and meet my goal- SUCCESS!! It also symbolizes LOVE- that I have taken the energy to love myself in the midst of the craziness of everyday life.

That ticker has been a part of my week ever since I joined Spark. Sometimes I celebrate it and log on several times a day to look at it (YUP- I do!) and sometimes I curse at it...even if IT didn't eat those cookies! And when I have felt really stressed, I erased it- go away so I don't have to face you TOO!

When I started, the finish line was just a number- I had no real picture in my head of what I would look like when I got there or how getting there would really feel...because I don't think I embraced the idea that I CAN GET THERE... I HAVE BEEN THERE BEFORE..I WILL REACH THAT NUMBER!!

Watching friends make their goals and move their tickers forward is what makes this all very real to me. I wonder how they feel when they walk in their closet and can fit in wonderful fun styles and sizes? How do they feel when they look at their ticker and feel like the beginning number was "so long ago"? It must be awesome- it must feel amazing from your head to your toes to look at that ticker and know that you did all that was wrapped up in the energy of getting that thing to move where you wanted. YOU DID IT! And I know I will too-I know I will! We all will if we stick with it, don't quit, and we just keep trying!

SO, when thinking about it today....my ticker also represents HOPE...and I love having that! What does it represent for you?