Thursday, April 14, 2011
O. K. I’m feeling really good now. I haven’t been blogging in a while because I was having and hosting a long running pity party for myself. I guess even at my age my mother still has influence over me. She always said if you can’t say anything good keep your mouth shut!
Today I feel good.
I did something really stupid a few months back... December 16th to be exact, I decided to take myself off all my medication. It wasn’t really a planned decision, 12/16 was the first day of my Xmas break and I just forgot to take my meds the first 3 days. You know how it is when you are not in a routine. Well I felt pretty good after not taking my meds for 3 days so I just kept it going. I decided that I would give myself a few months off and then have some lab work done and reevaluate my health. I just came back from the Dr. She agreed with me that I was stupid for having done this. But… on the plus side, we both came to the conclusion that I no longer need several of my medications.
1. I no longer need cholesterol medication. Even though I have not taken anything my cholesterol levels have gone down to an almost healthy level. I can attribute that to the fact that my eating habits have changed since I have been on SP.
2. I no longer need my blood pressure medication. I attribute this to the fact that I have learned several things on SP including how to relax and relieve stress when needed.
3. I no longer need my anti depressants. I have been on them for so long I can’t remember. But while I was on antidepressants, I found that I had no feelings whatsoever. Now, as I told my Dr. I have good days and I have some not so good days, but doesn’t everybody? Now at least I know that I do have feelings and I can manage the bad days by exercising, and talking to my SP buddies to relieve the bad feelings. Also by having adopted a healthier lifestyle, I now go out more often, I interact with new friends & finding my way back to church have helped me more that I can say.
4. One thing we both agreed on is that I should go back on my thyroid medication. I have been feeling quite sluggish and tired these last few weeks, and my not being able to lose weight even though I seemed to be doing everything else right was getting very frustrating. I hope this will help.
I started out this blog by telling you about my pity party and that was because I was feeling very confused about my feelings & new relationship with Mr. Too Good to be true. Just this week I joined a support group called Divorce Care. You can look it up on divorcecare.com. I found a group of very caring people that I have so much in common with. And it only took one meeting for me to realize that I am just not ready for any other relationship right now. I can see that I have to feel completely mentally and spiritually healed and learn to be happy by myself before I can begin to even think about having another relationship.
Thanks again Spark Buddies for all your care and support and goodies and positive comments on my page. I love you all. I feel like I’m finally on a path to recovery and I owe it all to you. God Bless you all!