Learning to FEEL sexy

You know it's strange. You work your butt off (literally) and then when you actually get to a point that your body is looking good, you don't know how to feel it.

My husband and I got in an argument Sunday bc I wouldn't wear these dresses he wants me to wear. LOL. Sounds funny right? Well, to be honest, I just didn't think I should wear them. I didn't feel like I should go in public wearing a dress that shows my legs and arms. I just didn't feel "sexy" in them. Not that they are sexy dresses, but they are sun dresses and kind of short, so you see part of my thigh (which has always been my trouble zone). He also got upset with me because while it was 80 degrees outside, I opted out of shorts and wore jeans. I own 1 pair of jean shorts and some other khaki shorts and plaid shorts from YEARS ago...like 2004, my freshman year of college. He thinks I should show off all my progress, and I'm thinking...who you kidding, I'm not that girl that can just wear shorts.

Anyway, he says I am that girl....so I have to learn to be that girl now. I just never really thought I could be there again. But I am. I'm not at my goal, but I'm toning up, my legs are getting nicer looking. I can be that 25 year old with shorts on! I don't have to cover up anymore. =) It's really nice to THINK about it. It's the idea of actually feeling it that is scary.

So, I am now at a point that I am learning how to feel that way again. It is nice. So, while I have about 10 more lbs to lose, I can start the process of learning to be sexy! I guess I deserve it after all this hard work!