Tuesday, May 03, 2011
Do you ever have one of those days when your day starts off ok but then someone makes one comment which makes you feel like less than you are. You start analyzing what the person said and get to a point where you see what they see. The funny thing is they don't even realize how their comment affected you.
I had this happen today. Flat out- I don't feel attractive and this person's comments just made me confirm this is how everyone sees me too. I don't feel like a whale anymore and I can't do anything about how my face looks without the intervention of a plastic surgeon. All I can do is set goals for myself to get to a point where I am happier with my appearance.
I want to drop 15 more pounds. Feel more comfortable with my body. I want to get my hair hilighted. I need to spend a bit more time on my make up and dress more girly. Also get new clothes that fit after dropping 33lbs. I tend to put make up on in the mornings and let it wear off by 11am. I have never been a fashion plate for me comfort is key. Give me jeans and a t-shirt with a cute pair of flats and I am happy.
I want to change this. I want to feel attractive. I am tired of feeling schleppy. Can I just say how much I am looking forward to my kickboxing class tonight?