Letter to Mom
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Mom, you're very much on my mind today and I wanted to tell you some things.
First, of course, I appreciate all the things you did for us that kids take for granted,
that I took for granted.
All the hard work, all the sacrifices, all the caring and nurturing and protection and support.
All the putting us first without even a thought of doing otherwise.
All that you endured because of us and for us.
All the things you gave up for us.
All the pride you had in us and whatever we did.
All the absolutely unconditional, never wavering love.
The total acceptance and love you had for us.
The complete forgiveness without even thinking there was something to forgive
when we fell short.
I wish I had shown you more gratitude and acknowledgement of all those things.
I wish I had shown you more how much I loved you and how much you meant to me.
I wish I had made more time for you than all those unimportant things in my busy life.
I wish I could remember you without the guilt of knowing I should have done more,
more giving of my self and my time to you.
More to let you know what a wonderful, beloved person you were.
More to let you know what it meant to me to have you as my loving mother.
But I think you knew anyway. I know that you know now.
And I know you forgave me for every shortcoming.
Thank you so very, very much, Mom.
Now can you help me forgive myself?
Love, your daughter.