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Another rainy day.

Monday, May 09, 2011

It is raining again. I don't think we need the moisture...I think it is wet enough. Oh well, guess we will just have to deal with the rain.

I had a good day yesterday. Only got teary eyed once. Of course it was in church! I did think about my oMom and how she would be so excited that I am getting healthy again. She knew I had to take medication and that it caused me to be hungry. She didn't like that part, but encouraged me to take it. She knew I didn't like taking it. And it took me years to really get into a regular routine of taking it right and regularly. Mental illness is not something that many people admit to easily. It is so stigmatized and the meds are not fun. They have side effects, the one most troublesome is weight gain!! At least to me, that is one of the worst!! I gained over 100 pounds since 2006 from the meds I was on. It hurt my knees and back, because the heavier I was the worse my arthritis got.

I thank God daily for not inheriting RA like my Mom had. The Osteo Arthritis is bad enough. So, what do I say today about taking psych meds...I say...get on the right ones...and stay on them!! I am healthier and happier than I was before my Mom died. I can live my life without the fear...no matter what the fear my be...fear of being in public or just talking to people. I even feared talking to people I knew, because. I thought they would think I was crazy or acting crazy! Now I don,'t fear people I know or don't know.

I meet new people almost every day. They don't even know I take meds or am bi-polar. Unless I tell them!! What a wonderful tool Spark People is and how thankkful I am to have it and my diabetes prevention c
lass!! Thank you all for your support! It has changed my life!

Thanks too my family and friends also. Their support gets me through when I can't t open up to new people, because I know they will always love me no matter what!!

Have an awesome Monday!! I know I will, raining or not!

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  • KACYBEE15
    This is a wonderful post!! I am so glad to hear that your life is improving daily. You're absolutely right - there is a stigma around mental illness. I truly believe that is changing though. The medical community is embracing how important mental health is more and more every day. I truly believe we're on the path to recognizing that the mind needs just as much care and attention as the rest of the body. AND with movie stars like Leighton Meester and Catherine Zeta Jones coming forward with their struggles in mental health the way society views bipolar disorder is really going to change.

    Having bipolar disorder is nothing to be ashamed of and treatment does exist. It's because of people like you that are willing to share their story that eventually mental illness will not be a source of shame or ridicule. Thanks for having the courage to treat your disorder and share your story. I'm very proud of you, and I'm sure your mom would be too!

    Keep up the great work! You are emoticon !!!

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