Beautiful Monday Morning
Monday, May 16, 2011
It is a beautiful Monday morning!! I slept well and feel good!! I am excited to be on a my journey to a more healthy life!!
And thinner to go along with it! I have yo-yo dieted for years. Taking medication can cause weight gain and often mental health meds are changed often...if you are not doing well. I have gone through many rough years...ups and downs that were hard and emotionally rough. I was married for 16 years...and although we had good times...it was difficult. If I wasn't sleeping, my husband would make me call the doctor in the middle of the night. I would often hyper ventilate...and I was so depressed at times I just wanted to die...and I tried to kill my self numerous times. I am not proud of it! I am telling everyone that with help...mental health meds and therapy...I moved on in my life. Now I am truly happy...I am still affected by mental illness daily...I have to watch that I don't get to manic...or too depressed. But right now, life is so good!! I am happy to be alive and getting healthy!! That is not something I could always say. I have lost both my parents in the past 8 years to cancer. My Mom's death was the hardest. My Mom was my person to call in the middle of the night when I couldn't sleep. Now I don't have anyone to call. Most people sleep at night. Unless you have ever suffered from insomnia...you do not know how lonely nights can be. Worse yet...gone for many nights in a row without sleep. Days become unbearable too, not just the nights. You don't function at a good level...yours days are poor...your nights are unbearable...your life is a constant struggle.
The affect of a positive support system can not be over rated!! I have received so much support from some of my family, my friends and now my friends on Spark People!! It is awesome!! Now when I have trouble sleeping or am up really early...Spark People is always there. I get on and just browse the site...or get spark points. Exercise and nutrition have played a big part in my journey....but so has the SP website!! I just want everyone to know that it really does help! I am living proof of that!!
I weigh in tomorrow morning...and I hope it is a good weigh in, but if it doesn't show a big loss, I'll take a pound or two!! I get to start water aerobics again on Friday...I am so happy!! I love water exercise. It is so good for my joints...and I feel so much better when I get out of the pool.
My thought for the day for everyone is....do you know someone who is struggling with depression or a mental health problem?? Have you reached out to them to let them know you really care and that there is help out there. Better yet help them access the help. If you don't know what is available in your community...find someone who does!!
Thanks for reading...I know this wasn't all about nutrition and exercise, but I feel your mental health is just as important for your healthy life style.