Tuesday

I am up at 1:00 am today. Had to use the rest room and was in pain...so decided to get up and eat a bit...some applesauce and take my celebrex and tylenol...then I will go back to bed for several more hours. I need a good amount of sleep...as I have my weigh in today and I want a good one!! My neck is still bothering me...made an appt. with the doctor for Thursday. If it is arthritis...not really much they can do...but if it is something else, maybe there is something. Guess I will wait and see!! No need to guess or worry until I know more.

I think I am going to see my sister this weekend. Her step-daughter is graduating from high school and they are having a party for her. I am so excited to see Paula's kitchen!! I spoke to her yesterday...and she has moved some of her stuff from storage into the kitchen. I am excited...as I lived with Paula for 2 years...before I moved to my present apt. We are close and I really miss her...she is two hours away from me now. Anyway...looks like I get to go see her this weekend!!

It was raining last night when I went to bed at 9 pm...I know...that is early..but I was tired!! I had a pretty stressful day yesterday. I went to a friend's meeting to show her my support...I got a little worked up and it was stressful. She is learning how to drive and has CP...now they are going to pull her funding and she is not ready to take the driving exam yet. She left the meeting very angry...because she was ready to cry and didn't want them to see her cry. Me....I would have just started crying!! I cry many times when I get frustrated or upset...I can cry in front of anyone...some people don't or just get mad and storm out. I don't usually leave angry...just at myself!! I guess that is why they say that depression is anger turned toward yourself...I know that is part of it anyway. I know it is also a chemical imbalance...but I am always harder on myself than anyone else is on me! Why does that have to be?? I am a good friend, sister, aunt, great aunt...but harder on myself than anyone is on me!!

Well, I am going to take my medications so I can get back to bed. Have a great day!! I know this wasn't about diet or exercise...but this is what was on my mind at this time of the morning...or should I say the middle of the night!!

Hugs!! Angie