LETTER TO MYSELF ON JUNE 7,2011
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Today, I am waiting to go have a biopsy done on some nodules in my Thyroid, but that is OK. When I found out that I had a problem of some type, I turned it over to the Lord to take care of and I believe He will. Right now I am writing to myself a letter to be read again when I finish this Biggest Loser's Summer Slim Down Challenge. I want to remember how I feel today and to remind myself to find joy in all the little changes I made this challenge. My back hurts, my legs go numb when I stand too long and my butt hurts when I sit too long. That's ok, because it is better than it was. And I know that it will be even better in 10 weeks. I have to remember how hard it has been to play with Anne Elizabeth, Josiah, Ben, Sarah and Hannah.
How about going shopping with the daughters--nearly impossible--Or taking a vacation with the family--the car ride and the walking. What about holding the little ones in your lap--what lap--or picking them up to give them hugs--or them putting their arms around you. It is all starting to happen and you know you want to keep the ball going. You remember how it was when you were 335 and how much better it is now at 265. Think about how it will be at 250 and then 240 and so on. Br proud of yourself for what you have achieved. Be kind to yourself for the mistakes you make. Be forgiving to yourself for your failures. Most of all love yourself for how you are at this moment and not how you want to be someday. You are worthy and special. As someone put it GOD DON'T MAKE JUNK.