Here I am again...
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
It's been a while since I've been on here and many things have been changing in my life.
1) I've gained a pound or two and I'm very disappointed in myself. Because I cannot afford it. I'm still MUCH bigger than I need to be and according to BMI, I'm "obese". So I'm trying to work up the strength to start getting my eating habits in order again. I, most definitely, need to exercise again. I always felt so much better. Mentally, Emotionally, Physically, etc. So, I thought I would try to start 'again'. God, help me!
2) My daughter is getting married!! The "possible son-in-law" in my pics. is GONNA BE my son-in-law on August 27th!! I love him dearly!! HOWEVER, my ONLY baby will be moving to Chicago area (6-7 hours away). Hurts!! REALLY HURTS!! But... He has a very good job there and I couldn't expect them to move here! So my 'adjustment' to the "empty nest" is going to be very hard. I sat and thought about it and I had her when I was only 15 (yes, I was very young). I went straight from my mother to BEING a mother EARLY!! I will miss her... I keep telling everyone, I'll be okay... when I only 'partly' believe what I'm saying. With not much of a social life and her being my right arm.. I will need God more than I ever have!! K... enough...
3) Work... My Job!! It started off really good, everything has been really good for the last 5 years! Loved it, no problems... but now, this year... I just feel like they would like to let me go... Not sure why, but I feel strongly that maybe that's what is wanted. The economy has been rough in our area (well, everywhere) but for a small business, that's seasonal... It's been REALLY rough!! So I'm wondering if 'cost' is an issue. Though I understand, I just wish I knew for sure. Because my boss has been like a father that I never had. Real supportive, but also willing to give a lecture when necessary!! haha. He's had some rough things happen in his life this year, so I don't know if the "change in attitude" is not really directed at me or if it is?? We have a semi-close relationship, but I don't feel comfortable right now with him to ask. UGH!!!! I don't know what to do... Should I just pack up and start looking.. or just hang in there??
Anyway, that's about it right now... Asking... NO BEGGING FOR PRAYERS!! If there's a moment "Wendy" pops into your mind... Please petition God for me! I appreciate EVERY SINGLE ONE!!!