Monday, June 13, 2011
Spark friends, I haven't been doing well. I know many of you have said I motivate you so I'm sorry if this is a downer. But I felt the need to share because this is life. Also I need a vent a little ;)
I haven't exercised in 6 days and my diet has been tanking. Lately I've felt bad. For the most part it has been dizziness and weakness along with palpitations and fatigue. I have a condition called Hashimoto's thyroiditis where my body attacks my own thyroid gland and the things I've been feeling are almost exactly the same as what set me down my path to getting a diagnosis in the first place.
The first time around I felt so weak and tired that I was almost unable to eat. I remember sitting across from my mom at the dinner table at Chili's in tears. She was prodding me to eat but the fork felt too heavy in my hands to lift. I chugged gatorade just to stay afloat which in retrospect wasn't smart but I felt I needed to do something since I couldn't eat and the doctors hadn't figured me out yet.
This time around is much better but the weakness and dizziness I feel reminds me of being low on calories and nutrients so I've been stuffing my face, trying to give my body all the fuel it could ask for.
Even so my calorie intakes are roughly around 1600 so it's nothing crazy but no amount of food is helping. Sleep seems to be the biggest help. I slept until noon today and I feel better than I did late last night but still weak, dizzy and my heart races when I move. Last time this went away on it's own and I'm still holding out hope it will but if I'm still the same tomorrow I will contact my doctor. It's hard with a condition like this. You will have bad days and you can't really call the doctor every time you feel bad but there is a limit. 1 week of dizziness and weakness is too much and I'll have to grace their doors if it persists past today.
I hope it'll be gone tomorrow. Actually up until the evening yesterday I felt almost completely normal. I took my nephew on a walk and played with him in the pool but then crashed again at about 9pm. Here's to hoping tomorrow is a better day!