Why I Still Feel 250
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
When you are a certain weight (or around a certain weight) for a long time, you begin to identify with that weight - at least I have (can you tell, I put it my user name!) - even when I got as high as 280 I think in my mind I still thought, "well, that's just water weight, I'm really 250" - seriously.
Now that 20-some pounds are gone, I still feel like I'm 250 - and I still feel stuck - like I'm going to be at this weight forever - (but I'm not, I'm actually at my college summer weight but with a two-baby body).
I didn't realize that I had been thinking this way until I put a shirt on this morning - I feel like I'm swimming in it - I could easily smuggle my little boy under there, maybe even my toddler - even the arms on it feel looser - I haven't worn this top for a month or two, it has been hiding in my closet - but the last time I put it on it was kind of snug.
But my jeans feel so tight - um - wake up call Katie, you were wearing elastic waist pants and 20Ws when you started this - the jeans you have on right now are regular-sized 18s (and you can button your 16s even though it makes it look like you are running a bakery special - muffin tops 2 for the price of 1).
It is time to stop identifying with 250 and move on - there are better things to be and those things don't have numbers :)