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Why I Still Feel 250

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

When you are a certain weight (or around a certain weight) for a long time, you begin to identify with that weight - at least I have (can you tell, I put it my user name!) - even when I got as high as 280 I think in my mind I still thought, "well, that's just water weight, I'm really 250" - seriously.

Now that 20-some pounds are gone, I still feel like I'm 250 - and I still feel stuck - like I'm going to be at this weight forever - (but I'm not, I'm actually at my college summer weight but with a two-baby body).

I didn't realize that I had been thinking this way until I put a shirt on this morning - I feel like I'm swimming in it - I could easily smuggle my little boy under there, maybe even my toddler - even the arms on it feel looser - I haven't worn this top for a month or two, it has been hiding in my closet - but the last time I put it on it was kind of snug.

But my jeans feel so tight - um - wake up call Katie, you were wearing elastic waist pants and 20Ws when you started this - the jeans you have on right now are regular-sized 18s (and you can button your 16s even though it makes it look like you are running a bakery special - muffin tops 2 for the price of 1).

It is time to stop identifying with 250 and move on - there are better things to be and those things don't have numbers :)

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  • BLUEBIRDSFLY
    It's strange because I don't really have a sense of my body size either. I know how I am doing based on the size I wear.
    I know I lost weight because it shows just about every where.
    But what is frustrating is that I am in a smaller size on top but I still can't get into smaller jeans. So I just continue to take deep breathes, remember that this is not a diet but a complete lifestyle overhaul and continue.
    I think you are doing great. I think weight loss should be gradual so that our perceptions of ourselves catch up to our body size.
    I wish you a wonderful journey and much success
    Bluebirdsfly
    3306 days ago
  • NIKKICOLE83
    I CCCCOOOMMMPLLETTTELLYY identify with what you are saying. It is funny that I was at 270 pounds and said the same thing, "Im really around 250." Now I am in the 220's and everytime I make a mistake on this journey I expect the number 250 to stare back at me on the scale. I ultimately would like to get to 180 but before I can even get close to there, I have to get over this 250 pound weight on my shoulders.
    3306 days ago
  • KALIGIRL
    Here's to your wonderful progress and zeroing in on those "better things to be"
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    3306 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10234260
    So true, I too have this self dismorphia thing going on....when I go to the store I automatically grab an XL without even thinking....even when I lost weigh before I still ran to the Xlarge sizes an sometimes even bought them because that's all I knew. This time, I'm really working on body image in my head because I don't think it's healthy to stay in the "FAT BRAIN"!! Have a great day and thanks for sharing! emoticon
    3306 days ago
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