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But Do I Really Feel the Way I Feel

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I’ve been ramping up my aerobic exercise the last two weeks, and it feels really good. I’ve been toying with walking…or jogging…or running (or some combination) a 5K in October. It’s a long way off, but as I discussed in earlier blogs, this year I have to focus on my career, which means that while regular workouts are a part of my healthy lifestyle, major new fitness accomplishments are not. I wanted a baseline for whether I COULD walk a 5K so on Monday night, I got on the treadmill, set the incline to “1” and started walking. At around 2.2 miles, the stupid machine reset itself. There was a time in my life when I would have taken that as a sign that I could stop, but this time, I just restarted the darn thing and kept going. Due to the mix-up and to the time re-setting, I have no idea how far I actually walked or how long it took, but I did go more than a mile after the re-set, so I definitely got in at least the 5K. I felt good. I felt like I could have pushed myself harder and gone faster, but that wasn’t the point of this exercise. The point was to prove to myself that I am ready to do a 5K now, even if I’m not very fast. And, I can. In fact, the next night I walked 2.9 miles at between a 3.5 and 5% incline just to get a feel for hills.

So, that changes my approach. I am not pushing myself to do something new. I’m looking for the kind of incremental successes that make me better at something. October is a long way off, and challenging myself to improve my walking pace may lead to some jogging or it may not, but it definitely makes sense to participate. My big exam for work is the end of October, making this one of the busiest months of my life. I waffle as to whether setting a fitness goal for myself allows me to do something to boost my confidence and feel good about myself, or whether it’s just unnecessary pressure at a high pressure time.

Knowing that I can already walk a 5K, even slowly, makes me lean toward the former. A confidence boost two weeks before the exam wouldn’t suck. I feel like I need to make a decision soon because the cost of the 5K steadily climbs starting in a couple of weeks.

I don’t know why I’m so reluctant to commit to this.
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  • AMBERROGUE
    I totally see where you're coming from. What about looking at a 5k - whether virtual or not - as a way to ease the stress of the exam?

    And I agree with MISSANTHROPY15...You are awesome!! Whatever you decide, know we support you 100%!!

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    3591 days ago
  • no profile photo TAZOBERRY
    I totally get this dilemma. But I too learn towards siding with the former of your two assessments -- I almost always end up feeling like when something really important is going on, it's better to have something else meaningful to me going on as well, because it somehow helps me get less overwraught about the eggs in that one particular basket when I have to divy up my attention even just a little bit more. And yeah, I think a confidence booster like this a couple weeks before this exam could a *really* good thing for you to have at that time. I can see it putting you in a really good place. So there, my two cents. But of course, you must follow whatever you ultimately feel deep down will be best for you. Which I know you know, but there it is anyway. :)
    3594 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7670724
    A 5K is a great idea. No matter when. I think it will give you something to focus on instead of just worrying endlessley about the big exam. I did one last August and it was so much easier than I thought. I was a bit heavier then and still it only took me 64 minutes. Sure that is longer than some but I wasnt the slowest one there. I did it at a fast walking pace and it felt really good to complete it. Confidence booster? 100%

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    3594 days ago
  • ELALYR
    Reluctance to commit usually means fear of failure, for me. Maybe think about what you might fear...consider the worst-case scenario, and see if that outcome is realistic, or for that matter, how bad would it really be? That sometimes helps me with decisions I'm putting off. One of my friends recently did a "virtual" 5K here on SP, by jogging 5K on her own and logging her time. I am tempted to join one of those myself...
    3595 days ago
  • MISSANTHROPY15
    You are awesome. Right here and right now. 5k or no 5k. I love you.
    3595 days ago
  • LAURIML
    Hi there! What if that 5K boosts your confidence like you are saying? And..it could even give you the extra energy you need for an exam! In fact, I think I'll do one too! emoticon
    3595 days ago
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