Thats it!

Watching tv tonight after 2 days on back on the couch crying, Ceelo said something of one of his singers that made me stop and rewind. He said "she wants to be healed" Thats it, the words I could never find for the fealings I couldnt explain. I've wanted to be healed. I want somthing to just click or blow over me and take back all the pain and tears, all the abuse and loss. To be loved and fixed and healed. Than I can be happy and whole and worthwhile. I've been waiting for something to happen or somone to do it for me. How I find it within myself to get there I have no idea, but understanding must be a start.

Di