Finding my groove...and holding on to it.
Saturday, July 02, 2011
I think I finally found my groove...it took about 3 months. It's awesome to be in this place.
The place where I don't feel deprived. Where I enjoy healthy food and even when I have to eat out or I choose to have a splurge, it's really easy to get back on track and the negative effect is minimal.
The place where I enjoy working out...and if I miss a workout, I actually WANT to do two the next day to make it up. I'm in a place now, where I sometimes do two or three workouts on some days, because I still feel like doing it.
I am now at the lowest weight I have been in about 10 years. I gained that weight during an extremely traumatic and stressful time. My greatest fear is that I will face another time like that and lose the progress I have made.
And can I actually get lower than I am now? Can I even stay here? A few years ago I got down to 243.8 and then I lost focus...I fell into a depression after we moved to Texas that I didn't even realize I was in. I gained every ounce of weight back.
Now I'm back down to 243.2 and I am ecstatic. I am also terrified. I found my groove. Can I hold on to it this time?