July: then & now
Friday, July 08, 2011
I don't really know how to start this post other than: I have been reflecting a lot recently. Last July was a pivotal point in my life. I was living in Arizona, engaged and unhappy and just starting to value and take care of myself. I had lost 20 pounds mostly through cardio but still didn't really know what I was doing when it came to working out.
June 2010: my boss from Arizona sent me out to Sonoma, CA (really close to where I grew up) for a leadership retreat. This retreat was so much more for me. I reconnected with what makes me happy, and realized that my relationship and life in Arizona were doing exactly the opposite. I also rekindled a friendship (my best friend from high school who I had had a falling out with and who I hadn't spoken with for almost 5 years). He was going through a divorce and when I went back to Arizona we kept in touch.
July 2010: Over the 4th of July weekend I drove out to San Diego where he was stationed with the Army, and we drove back to Arizona where he rented me a moving truck, packed up my stuff and I left. I broke up with my ex and moved in with my friend out in CA. It was hard. I left a life that I had built full of friends, a career and even though I was moving back to the area that I grew up I was terrified. I took most of July as a break. By the end I had found a job and also got my results back that I no longer had abnormal & pre-cancerous cells in my cervix. Life was good.
Over the past year it has gone from good to amazing. When I moved back I gained about 8 pounds since I was not focused on working out, but once I pulled myself together and returned my focus to myself the weight again began to come off. In April 2011 I was down to 186 - 34 pounds gone since I started my original weight loss journey in Jan of 2010. I also met the love of my life. We met and have been together since April 1st and are now living together. It has only been 3 months but it feels like 3 years in the best way possible. Looking back on my old relationship I never knew what it felt like to feel completed. I didn't think that it existed until I met Trevor.
Around May & April I had been training for a 5k and began to have a lot of pain in my heel. One of the Physical Therapists that I work with diagnosed it as Plantar fasciitis - a nasty condition that is the inflamed tissue on the bottom of the foot. I was limping every morning getting out of bed and could figure out what was wrong. At first I didn't take it seriously and it began to get a lot worse, but I am working on taping my foot every night & icing it after walking or running.
I think that it was a blessing in disguise. I was so focused on my routine of going to the gym and going to work that I didn't have time for anything else. When this side-lined me it opened me up to more and I have been able to focus on building a great, healthy relationship. I have gained a few pounds over the last three months, but nothing that is going to stick, especially once I start running again. I am excited to be in a relationship where we cook dinner together, walk to the grocery store and enjoy an active lifestyle. I know that it will become even more active once my foot is healed.
I can't believe how much has changed within the last year and I can't wait to see what will unfold in the year to come. I am not going to meet my weight-loss goal in the time that I had planned out, but finding someone who tells me that I am beautiful every day right now is even better. I am actively working on healing my foot, but I have a hard time doing things in moderation. I can't just go one mile. Last night I went for a walk/run that was 4 miles. I noticed that my endurance is way down, but what can I expect for not running for almost 3 months. I also had really intense pain in my foot & hip flexor which reminds me that I need to build myself back up gradually.