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Totally Lost

Thursday, July 14, 2011

WOW! Its been over a year since I have posted a blog and yes I'm lost. I don't even know who I am anymore or what I am doing or where my life is going. All I do know is I am slowly but surely killing myself and I am so not ready to die. I have got to get my rear in gear and get some of this weight off of me before I end up like some of my favorite family members. I miss them but I am not ready to see them just yet. I have so much to live for but it's like I have lost the desire to live or rather the desire to push myself to eat healthy and exercise.

Where do I go from here?
What do I do with myself now?

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  • HEATHER1676
    Thanks for all the encouragement. This has been a really hard struggle for me and now its really getting harder the doctors think my 6 yr old son has diabetes I honestly don't know what to do but I have to figure it out fast for my babies sake. emoticon
    3292 days ago
    You may have been lost, but now you're back and that's the main thing. I know your feeling all too well, as it has been an uphill struggle for me from the very beginning.

    The best way to start is from te beginning. Re-read the Spark Diet info and if you have The Spark, re-read that, too. Become more active on your groups (as time permits) as I have found that is a valuable tool for me because I need the accountability and the support and encouragement.

    I'm adding you as a SparkFriend and hope you will add me, too. Together we can do it!!

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    P.S. Hope to see you return the the NE AR Sparks team soon--we miss you!
    3318 days ago
    I sincerely understand how you are feeling regarding not knowing who you are or where life is taking you. I'm going through something similar myself, feeling the need to reinvent myself from the briefcase toting manager, to stay-at-home mommy to whatever direction life is taking me now.

    I'm hoping that the guidance I received from someone who has been fighting weight issues and finding oneself for many, many years will help you as much as it is helping me.

    Where to go from here: Concentrate on the weight and exercise on a day-to-day basis. Tell yourself that today I'm not going to __________ (my goal today is to not have that sugary Pepsi calling me from the pantry). Today I'm going to do this exercise___________ (my exercise goal is to ride 5 minutes on my exercise bike).
    I find that accomplishing these little things makes me feel good about accomplishing something for that day. Anything beyond that is just icing on the cake.

    What do I do with myself now: This may sound cliche, but right now concentrate on getting through life day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Several years ago I was at a point when I seriously had to live my life hour by hour because I didn't know how my emotions were going to pan out for longer periods than that. My life was not my own for a short period of time but I gave myself permission that it was o.k. to absolutely live hour by hour (this was some very sound advice I had received) and it helped a lot.

    Also, when I need a boost of encouragement/motivation, there is a blog outside of Spark that I visit regularly. The author is unbelievable and her weight loss and exercise journey is nothing short of miraculous. If you're interested, please email me and I can provide the information to you.

    Take care.

    3318 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    good luck
    3318 days ago
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    Never Give Up!
    Life is Good!
    Good health is the Greatest Wealth!
    I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me.
    Philippians 4:13
    3318 days ago
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