What do I call this?
Sunday, July 24, 2011
I'm not off track, by any means. I'm making great choices...most of the time. I'm working out and pushing myself more than ever. My muscles are strong. I'm feeling pretty good.
BUT I fell off my team challenge (DIY) two weeks ago after a death in the family. I had a business trip this past week and i'm feeling tired.
My desire is to start logging my food, start packing my lunches and meal plan for the week ahead. To wear my body bug and get to the gym 1/2hr earlier for cardio.
I landed at the airport returned home on Friday. I spent all day Saturday with my son and his father. I spent all day Sunday at a friend's son's birthday party and I'm tired.
I have paperwork, house cleaning, grocery shopping to do and it didn't g
et done this weekend. I've got a 6pm vet appt tomorrow for the cat. THIS is usually when I feel frustrated and slip...when I'm not organized. UGH. I refuse to sabotage myself this week because of all the "clutter".
I've been back and forth with my son's father for awhile now. We had a great day yesterday. I just want things to continue progressing but not sure where he's at. I wanna stay on course with my goals and feel consumed with thoughts of him. THIS is usually when I fall off track too.
I've got a situation at work that's eating at me. I wanna get through it but feel really stressed about it. I usually fall off track when the stress level is high.
I am by no means off track...i'm at a fork in the road and I'm choosing to not let these things put my goals further from me instead of closer. I really made a situation at work worse by doing too much...i wish I could change it and figure out how to handle things better when a personality is challenging.
I wanna call him...but I won't. I wanna see him but right now, more is less.
I wanna jump back in the DIY challenge but it's too much right now...i'm behind on stuff and don't have time or energy to jump back in as if I never left...anything more right now will send me back peddling.
My trainer moved and I was so doing great with her. She kept me going, helped me motivate myself, I was getting it completely getting into a rhythm with her and she moved. I went to her cocktail party Friday night after the airport. I'm going to miss her so much more then she knows. I have a new trainer...also at the cocktail party...and I like her...but she's a little flaky. I need someone who pushes me, I don't know if it's the newbie. There's no other trainer that comes in as early as these two do (did) so it's the schedule that works for me. (it's funny to me to talk about the party with the trainers...when a year ago I was scared to even walk by a gym and look in the window).
All I can do this week is get through it. Work next weekend to clean, shop, etc. Hope that he and I can continue to be friends although I want more. Sometimes I think he does too. Maybe yesterday it crossed his mind (i think it did). I just wanna pull it in before I ruin it. Meaning I need to just let things take their natural course and not force anything.
I've got a rocky week ahead and I'm going to get through it without making things worse.