Admitting is the first step.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Hi, my name is Amanda and I have an eating problem. You might call it a disorder, you may just call it a problem...who knows. I have to face my problems tho. It is definitely time to admit to myself and the rest of the Spark community that I LOVE food.
I am a binge eater. I do not purge what I eat, so thank goodness there. Can't say that thought never crossed my mind. But I have NEVER resorted to bulimia. When I get cravings, I eat what I crave and I eat a lot of what I crave. I feel guilty, so I hide at my house by myself and eat. I throw the packages away outside so that my husband doesn't find the evidence of my binge.
Wow, it sounds worse when you actually put it out there. There is no getting around it, I cannot lose weight bc I binge eat. I am not a naturally BIG person, my body doesn't like 150 so it sticks around that weight, I binge and my body stays this weight.
It really is a struggle for me. I'm so glad that I love working out bc if I didn't, then I would be obese. There is no getting around those facts.
So, today is my first step to conquering my addiction to foods. I went grocery shopping last night and got a lot of great foods to have around the house. I really need to get over this addiction. There is nothing wrong with enjoying the foods I love, but there is an issue when you enjoy 3-5 servings of the foods I love. I have to learn control. But I think the first step is getting the cravings out of my head.
This week, I am not only working on not binging, but I am going to work on retraining my brain to eat the right stuff. So, goal here is to stay away from Junk...nothing processed this week. All natural foods and all healthy foods. I feel like if I can get over the challenge of the crave, then I can get over the challenge of the binge.
Judge me, think what you want, but I feel like getting this out there to my Spark friends will really help them to keep me accountable for my actions this week. So, this week I plan to post all about my challenge with my binging. My success and (God forbid) my failures. I will log EVERYTHING I put into my mouth and work on keeping myself accountable for my actions.
Thanks in advance to those Spark friends that help me with this challenge.