This past weekend was exactly what I needed. Call it a spark, an inspiration, a re-awakening, re-commitment, call it whatever you want...it was what has been missing from my days as of late. And it feels good. I knew that something was missing, but I just didn't know how to find it.
Brief catch-up since I have not been blogging lately:
I have not been active lately. I have not been running consistently since April (really the end of May) when I was down to 186. I haven't weighed myself lately, but I can tell that I have gained a few pounds (mostly in my face is where I can tell). I think a lot of things brought this to reality: I developed really bad plantar fasciitis in my left foot which makes running awful (I am guessing because I was increasing my running so much since I was in the process of 5k training & then looking out for a half-marathon in Sept, then the Warrior Dash in Oct - all of which are off of the table now). I was forced to slow down and take it easy on my foot, and then I met a boy. The combination of a new love (not that I am blaming that at all, since he is also very active) and a bad foot & a move-in with the new love made regular gym visits a thing of the past.
I was starting to feel anxious again. I never realized how much exercising had quelled my anxiety levels. I realized that I missed running. I missed feeling free. I missed a accomplished feeling after a great strength training work-out. But for some reason I couldn't get myself going. When I did I would want to go out and run for 4 miles - get back to where I was 4 months ago instantly. It was hard being honest & realistic with myself that I was not in the same shape that I was back in May. It could be worse - so I am not being too hard on myself.
My DO LIFE weekend started on Saturday.
I needed new jeans badly. I was only operating with 3 pairs and I realized that while I don't want to buy a ton of new clothes at this temporary weight, I need more than 3 pairs of jeans. So I went shopping. I hadn't been jean shopping since May and I was happy to find that I fit comfortably in to the size 15s that I found on the junior rack at Ross. I felt pride swelling up inside me, that even though I haven't been working as hard as I should have been lately, and I haven't been losing any weight lately, I have still lost at least 30 pounds since I started this journey.
I got lunch with my old boss after shopping (and wearing my new jeans) she commented on how great I looked and that she loved my pants :) I was reminded again that I have still come a long way.
SUNDAY: Do Life 5k
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Ben & Pa were rolling across the countryside, a while back I had checked out the dates but hadn't exactly taken it seriously when I saw that they were coming to SF. Then my friend Tonya (fittining130) texted me and asked me what I was doing this weekend. She had just done the 5k in Phoenix and encouraged me to go out on Sunday & check this out.
So I got up early, took Pyeper for a stroll around the park then headed off to Golden Gate park. I didn't really know what to expect but I showed up and a group of people had gathered at the meeting place. We went and took the traditional group photo, mingled around for a little then we were off. This was my first "official" 5k, even though it was the most un-official version one could be. Since I had not really been running since May I took it pretty easy and walked a lot of it. I talked with some great people and spent some time on my own. I walked when I wanted to and ran when it felt right. I didn't come in first and I didn't come in last, but when I came back to where we started there were people cheering & welcoming me in.
I can't put it into words. I don't know if anyone who was there, or who has been to one across the US really can. It was amazing & wonderful & inspiring & I want to keep that feeling with me forever and throughout each day to remind me to Do Life. It felt powerful to be with a group of strangers who came together to enjoy fitness as a team. I felt re-connected to my original goals & fitness commitments that I feel like I have lost touch with.