At the time of this post I didn't know that I was about 2 weeks pregnant..which could have been causing the cravings :)
So I have been a vegetarian for almost 2 years. I originally became a vegetarian for a number of reasons, animal welfare, the harm that farming has on the environment, the question of are we designed to be meat eaters and on and on. The primary reason was a strong link to the antibiotics used in meat being like a super food for cancer & the overall effect of meat on the body as it relates to cancer.
I was diagnosed with pre-cancerous and a few cancerous cells in my cervix over 2 years ago, on the day that Michael Jackson died (it was a weird memory). My doctor was a bit more homeopathic than most and said that if I cleaned up my life, my diet and got healthy, my body would be strong enough to fight without the need for chemo or anything else more serious.
I began my research and originally I was completely vegan for a few months. Going from eating whatever I wanted, wherever I wanted to a completely restricted eating plan was really difficult and I began to slowly include some animal products back into my diet. This didn't mean that I was making eggs for breakfast, but more that I wasn't scanning every single ingredient on what I was buying for a trace hint of lactose.
Last year when I moved away from Arizona, and back to California I had my last check-up with my doctor. It was towards the end of July when I was living back in CA that I got the call that I had been waiting a year for. This was also the same day that I got the job offer for my current job, that today is my one year anniversary for...I know...small world.
I was cancer free. A check-up a month ago, re-confirmed this. I AM cancer free.
Over the past year I began to eat some fish but in limited amounts, maybe once a week since that was something that I really missed. Recently I have been craving meat, I think that it might have something to do with the fact that Trevor makes delicious looking meat, but I can only speculate. I also wonder if I am craving it subconsciously because my body needs it. Ever since I became vegetarian I have always had to watch my protein and iron and I have been less and less vigilant to make sure that I am getting exactly what I need every single day.
So last night Trevor asked what I wanted for dinner. He makes amazing eggplant parm and on a whim I asked him if he would make a small version of some chicken parm to go along with it too. He is so wonderful that he went to Whole Foods and told the deli that he had the pickiest person about to eat meat again, and that he needed the best quality chicken they had.
He got a pamphlet on their meat-rating scale and we reviewed it before dinner. I felt that these chickens had lived a good life with plenty of room, no antibiotics, no hormones, completely vegetarian diet and had not suffered before they died, so morally I felt OK about the meat that I was about to eat.
My body & taste buds however felt differently. It was really weird. I had forgotten what it tasted like. I had begun to think that chicken really did taste like the vegetarian chicken substitutes that I had come to love. It was really "chicken-y". I was thrown off and in the middle of the night woke up with horrible stomach cramps. I have still been somewhat nauseous throughout the morning and I thought that it was interesting that my body was rebelling so much. You never hear of someone getting sick because they tried vegetables (well I guess if you are allergic or something) or incorporated more veggies into their diet.
I don't know if I am going to incorporate meat back into my diet or not. If I do it will be of the highest quality, completely organic with no hormones, antibiotics, humanely raised & killed, etc. I still have mixed feelings. Trevor was really proud that I tried it, I am too. I thought that I would enjoy the taste of meat again and I really didn't. I still don't enjoy the taste of eggs since they creep me out. I think that meat is just protein-filled vehicle that carries sauce into my mouth (sauces are really what I love) so maybe I just need to be more mindful to get enough protein through vegetarian means and I won't re-join the meat eating world.
I'm not making a final choice, just doing some reflection.