Did you lose your spark? I found a lighter!
Monday, August 08, 2011
A couple of years ago i was on fire! I had the spark. I had a bunch of spark buddies, my sil, my trainer and the support of my family. Then..... personal circumstances and a boat load of excuses found me.
I did not have the extra hour a day to spark. I gave up sparking everyday, eventually exercise, and finally i gave up facebook. I should have had so much time to do what ever I wanted. My house should have been spotless. My paperwork should have been filed and put away. I had so much time on my hands....I would look online and occasionally get a goodie, mail from sparkers and sometimes a note on my sparkpage... People that I had inspired were looking for me. People that have had great success and have done really neat things. I am so proud of all of them... What did I do with all of that spare time? I got really good at syfygames. I gained weight. And now I am heavier than what I was when I started.
I avoided the scale. Yup. The scale is not an indication of my self worth. I will not let the number let me down. I will keep my weight in check by using my clothes meter. My clothes are tight so I bought new ones.
A couple of weeks ago I started training for my tri. I have ridden 64 miles so far on my bike. I went for my first swim in preparation. I have been using the AMT at the gym to work on my stride and to avoid the pressure on my foot. I figured that i am starting to feel a little better about myself so I stepped on the scale. Not happy with the number but I did find that it gave me a true indication that I needed spark. I need my friends.. I need to throw the excuses out the door.
I am worth the effort how about you?
I am back. The lighter is out and i am making a spark. If you need a friend i will share my lighter with you. I know that this is an element of weight loss that I need in my life. The support of friends that understand the struggles of everyday life.
It feels nice to be back.