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Did you lose your spark? I found a lighter!

Monday, August 08, 2011

A couple of years ago i was on fire! I had the spark. I had a bunch of spark buddies, my sil, my trainer and the support of my family. Then..... personal circumstances and a boat load of excuses found me.

I did not have the extra hour a day to spark. I gave up sparking everyday, eventually exercise, and finally i gave up facebook. I should have had so much time to do what ever I wanted. My house should have been spotless. My paperwork should have been filed and put away. I had so much time on my hands....I would look online and occasionally get a goodie, mail from sparkers and sometimes a note on my sparkpage... People that I had inspired were looking for me. People that have had great success and have done really neat things. I am so proud of all of them... What did I do with all of that spare time? I got really good at syfygames. I gained weight. And now I am heavier than what I was when I started.
I avoided the scale. Yup. The scale is not an indication of my self worth. I will not let the number let me down. I will keep my weight in check by using my clothes meter. My clothes are tight so I bought new ones.
A couple of weeks ago I started training for my tri. I have ridden 64 miles so far on my bike. I went for my first swim in preparation. I have been using the AMT at the gym to work on my stride and to avoid the pressure on my foot. I figured that i am starting to feel a little better about myself so I stepped on the scale. Not happy with the number but I did find that it gave me a true indication that I needed spark. I need my friends.. I need to throw the excuses out the door.
I am worth the effort how about you?
I am back. The lighter is out and i am making a spark. If you need a friend i will share my lighter with you. I know that this is an element of weight loss that I need in my life. The support of friends that understand the struggles of everyday life.
It feels nice to be back.
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  • SUGIRL06
    3535 days ago
    Awesome! You can do this Jeanne! Keep that lighter handy now and don't lose it. Take care of that foot and be good to yourself.

    3536 days ago
    Good girl, Jeanne! I'm so glad you found your lighter again!

    There are so very many SP family out there who will ALWAYS be there for you as will your family here, outside of Spark.
    We love you Jeanne & know you can do it!!
    3536 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/9/2011 6:18:48 AM
    I have been LOVING having my spark reignited with you and by you, Jeanne. You rock!!! always have!
    3536 days ago
    Many of us need this - when our spark dims, there's always a friend's light to follow.
    Welcome back!
    3537 days ago
    Thanks Judy, i find that denial is really easy. Good friends tell you the truth!
    3537 days ago
  • JLITT62
    It took me a long, long time to admit I needed weekly WW meetings forever. I didn't want to pay the money. They take time. I can't seem to ever actually get back down to my GW.

    Admitting you need something is usually the beginning of something good . . .
    3537 days ago
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