Guilts Attempts at Sabotage
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
I forget how subtly guilt can sabotage your goals! I have read all the articles about not feeling guilty if you eat something unhealthy or have a bad day and I never worry about those because I don't feel guilty about that. I know me and I expect that I will eat a couple of cookies every now and then or have a few too many drinks occassionally! That's not what makes me feel guilty. What makes me feel guilty is turning someone down. Today I turned away our Schwan's man because I like to place my order online, in advance, so I can make sure I'm getting the healthy frozen food that I love from them like the Tortilla encrusted Tilapia and asparagus. I forgot to place my order early so he came by to see if I needed anything off the truck and I knew not to buy anything at that moment because I was hungry (right before lunch). So I told him no and that I was going to order online for next time. It was so hard to do and he looked so sad! (I'd had to tell him no the previous time also because we were just moving in and still so unsettled!) I didn't know a grown man could look so disheartened. My husband says I'm a big softie and he's right. I didn't let the Schwan's man get to the end of the sidewalk before I called him back. I still tried to be good though! I was just going to get the tilapia and asparagus. The two I remembered off the top of my head and knew we really liked. But he was out of the tilapia, so I ordered the asparagus, some seasoned and diced sweet potatoes and the only other thing I could remember that I liked a lot -- Peanut Butter Chocolate Chunk Supreme Cookie dough!! Ugh!! This is why I order online, at night, when my day has gone well! Maybe I'll make them all this weekend when we have company.