update from june 5th blog
Thursday, September 01, 2011
well its sept 1st, kids are all moved in it can be nerv- racking, but also nice having them around, if you can keep up with them!!! I wish they would learn to wash a pan and put there dishes in the dishwasher, laundry room is wreck!! those are my only complants about the older kids. school will start soon for our youngest 6th grade middleschool, oh my gosh my baby is growing up :(
well work a whole nother story still all floting up in the air. just last week I got a permenant schedual after about 3 months, but only because I asked and said I cant live like this anymore, I was and still am a wreck, getting alittle better. our branch went through and still is going through coworker changes, I dont know who anyone is anymore at work
my mood is all over the board, I cant even keep up with it!!! anxiety is through the roof, weeling up in teers all the time( I am not much of a cryer) I cant think straight, make a decision, all I would like to do is sleep.
my moms parkinsons is getting worse, she is getting needy and I am not strong enough to deal with it,I feel ashamed.
I need to take care of myself, but finding it difficult. I need to get back into working out, that would help eas the stress, I just dont do it, I think of it often but thats about it
I need to take controle of my life, take it back!!! i dont feel strong enough,
I just down loaded the book Think, By Lisa Bloom, every mother friend daughter sister should read it, hope it helps.....