My Revelation and seeking HONEST feedback
Monday, September 26, 2011
I realize that I owe of my faithful Spark friends two race reports. For me to write a race report takes alot of mental fortitude because I am a Virgo (perfectionist) and if I don't get it right the first time, then I simply procrastinate. Call it a flaw, I call it normal. Right now, I have something that is suddenly heavy on my mind that popped up out of the blue. I did NOT see this coming. The purpose of this blog is to get my thoughts out there and for some serious and thoughtful feedback. You see, I am very analytical and break everything apart to the point of exaustion. That is the way I roll.
I ran HM #8 yesterday after running HM #7 just a week before. I felt ready, rested and the end result was awesome! I ran with our son Matt who was experiencing his first HM and I felt a strong motherly urge to run it with him from start to finish. It was a success!
With that said, something happened through the course of the Quad Cities Marathon from start to finish. It was a snapshot in time as we were in our positions waiting for the canon to blast the start of the race. The day before at the expo/paceket pickup, I was perusing the very comical Pacer's displays that they create themselves. You have the typical pacers that promise finishing a full at Boston marathon qualifying pacing time, the pacers that promise a blah blah finish and everything in between. The one that totally caught my eye was the pacer that promised to finish literally "same day". This guy has a reputation of being quite the comedian but will get you to where you want to be. It was THAT moment.
I have now finished 8 HM's with the last 3 being so comfortable, fun and VERY rewarding. I am now convinced that I am truly a runner. I am a Half Fantatic with 3 moons and even though there are runners that don't approve of what Half Fanatics stand for, it is important to me. I am not a fast runner but I am a runner that has truly embraced the joy of running. I don't include the fancy schmancy speedwork or the Tempo runs because it sucked the fun out of lacing up my running shoes and heading out. I simply run for the fulfillment it gives me. I run for me. I have also spread the joy of running to 3 generations in our family. That is hopefully one of the most important legacies I give my family.
With all of that said, something happened yesterday as I ran with our son who was running his first HM. With the pacer's sign advertising "same day" marathon finishing and running side by side marathoners on Rock Island Arsenal Island, I have discovered that out of the blue, I now have that urge to run a Full.
Now, please do not tell me "I told you so" because I don't want to go there. This is how runners evolve and it is the normal process in the runner's psyche. I am not asking for "rah rah shish coombah" you can do this. What I am asking for from fellow runners that have trained for and successfully finished full marathons is for the down and dirty and the truth of what the process is really like.
With the tought of pursuing a full, my biggest fear is injury, overtraining and burn out. I am under the very close watchful eye of my wonderful chiro Dr. Lake that gives me ART. She is very honest with me and I depend on her to keep me running healthy and happy. I have a very aggressive Fall HM schedule and I am having a blast. My next HM is in 3 weeks and i cannot wait! I am just now feeling that urge to perhaps raising the bar. That raised bar would be a Full.
I am asking fellow running buddies that have experienced this very thing if you think I can do it and most importantly, if they wish they had not gone to that next level and regretted it.
The Full I would most likely attempt would be the Quad Cities Marathon one year from now. I have a great comfort level here and I know that the QCM race organizers are AWESOME and put on a great event.
This urge is not leaving. I have not even told hubby Jim about this yet and only a few close friends here. Coach Nancy told me that I will know in my head and heart when it is time to pursue this goal. She told me to respect the distance. I respect everything she so unselfishly advises me.
I am scared, nervous but yet very giddy with this new mindset. THANK YOU for reading this to this point. I also promise race reports for Air Force and Quad Cities HM. Both events were so awesome! Trust me.