Why I disappeared
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
It's been a few weeks. The last blog was really sparky and then a few things happened. The first is that I came down with the worst virus, sore throat, inner ear infection, debilitating headaches... it's gone on for 2 weeks and I'm finally better but I've still got too much fluid in my inner ear. This was on top of the trouble with my waterworks. Then I found out that my dad is dying and had very little time left. I haven't really wanted to share this because all the things that people would usually say don't quite fit. He's been a hardcore alcoholic most of my life which has made him a pretty difficult father to have. He contributed to my mother's death 4 years ago and was even arrested for it. I've spent my entire life trying to make peace with him and forgive him and just love him. So I'm on my way to see him with my brother next week but I need to sort my ears first as I've got 16 hours of flying to get to him. In addition to this, my son is having a pretty lousy time in Madrid because his university didn't send the paperwork through in time and he couldn't register for all of his courses. Now it's too late and no one will help him and we're spending countless hours emailing and on the phone. He's 21 and extremely independent so it's really hard to see him so down. I'm determined to crack it today. And I also started my new job last week. So I'm cutting myself some slack and just trying to be moderate in all things and I'll get back on track when I return from the US. I'm sorry if I haven't been there for you guys. This has been one trying year!