I fell off the spark

After a lot of thinking over the past few days, I decided I was headed in the right direction more than once in my life in various ways, but they never came together all at once.

I start strong and determined and even do well until I hit a bump and then I have a hard time getting back up.

It only took a knee injury to keep me from going to Warrior Dash. And the disappointment in what I felt was total failure caused me to start back on the downward spiral.

But the truth is, I have all the tools I need to be the person I want to be. I've successfully changed my diet, exercised, lost weight, been healthy, quit smoking, and moderated my drinking to a responsible level, but never all at once.

I hear people say to take it slow and change one thing at a time, but that doesn't seem to do anything for me personally but allow me to have an excuse not to get myself together.

I know exactly what I need to do. I've practiced all of these healthy changes at times in my life, but now it's time to try to put all these changes together to form the healthy, happy person I want to be.

I may not do things in a way that makes sense to everyone, but the one thing I have is the ability to keep bouncing back, to never give up hope. I will not become a cynic!