Ready or not...Here it comes.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Well, I finally did it. I finally filed for divorce and moved from Phoenix, AZ back home to the Memphis, TN area to be near friends and family. It's both comforting and odd to be home again. I'd actually gotten quite used to Phoenix. I miss it. I miss the job, the people there too. However, I don't miss the hurtful, abusive situation I was living in there. My weight is higher than ever. Obviously, I've had no time to think of anything but survival lately. I eat whatever I can find. I am unemployed, scared out of my mind, and at the same time I finally feel like I can breathe again. My heart both aches for what could have and should have been, and feels relieved that I don't have to do that anymore. I'm hoping this new year will bring some huge changes for me. A job, successful weight loss, etc, but for right now, I'm just trying to get my bearings and that's good enough for now. Thank you so much for all of the support you've all given me through the last several years. I've been stuck in this weight thing, but I'm hoping now that the dark clouds don't cover me constantly anymore, that possibly I can change that and at least be a healthy weight. I want to do that for me. I've been through a lot. Take care, My Friends.