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I'm baaaaaaack!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I sent off my CV tonight, so I've done it! I applied for a job I really want and probably won't get, put myself out there, took a risk, told my boss that I was applying…. It's an internal position, so I had to tell him, even though I know the chance that I'll get the job is very remote.

This past week and a half have been so stressful. All these crazy weird insecurities came bubbling up to the surface. So many confusing thoughts and feelings around self-worth!

I had a few low points with eating, but it never got as bad as it used to. Even at my most stressed, I remembered how much I love this new way of eating and all these wonderful changes in my body.

And I've had some amazing exercise breakthroughs that I promise to blog about soon! Strength training is LIFE-ALTERING -- WOOOOOT!

I am sooooo looking forward to getting back to Sparking! When I'm stressed out, I become very mono-focused. I didn't play my cello very often, barely visited with friends -- just worked on my application and procrastinated working on my application by watching trashy TV and cleaning the house. I continued to track food intake, even what I ate from the jar by the heaping tablespoonful. 'Nuff said.

So many blogs to catch up on reading! So many people to say hello to! I missed you all, and am sorry for not responding to goodies and comments on my page…. I'll catch up with you lovely folks soon!

Lots of love,

Tara
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  • KALIGIRL
    emoticon on your exercise breakthroughs emoticon
    3161 days ago
  • HEATHER1969
    I loved the part of your blog where you said you tracked your food " even from the jar by the heaping tablespoonful" emoticon THAT shows you just how much progress you have made and how much you have made yourself accountable for your lifestyle!

    YOU ROCK!

    Welcome Back!
    3161 days ago
  • TMCLEOD4
    Welcome back!! Good luck with the job and I totally understand you not wanting to talk to people. I think that happens to a lot of people.
    3161 days ago
  • VALERIEMAHA
    Glad you're among us again...and YAY! on going for the job. Ya' never know...!

    You've got a regular assembly waiting for the strength training breakthroughs, me among'em!!!
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    Maha
    3161 days ago
  • KALIGIRL
    Glad you're back!
    3161 days ago
  • JITZUROE
    Welcome back!!!! You know, you also had some amazing breakthroughs. You put yourself right out there in the elements; in the eye of the storm!!!! I am proud of you : ))))

    Bren
    3161 days ago
  • CROOKEDLETTER
    Good luck on the job! And strength training is so very, very nice. Yay!

    3162 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7651842
    WELCOME BACK ! I've been gone myself BUT now we're back and can continue on this journey together.

    P.S.: You never know, you may get the job. I'll cross my fingers for you. It was a GREAT non-scale victory for you in any event.

    Glad your back.

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    Dale
    3162 days ago
  • PUDLECRAZY
    Yay! I'm so happy you are back and I am looking forward to your strength training blog. Strength training has been a real turnaround for me too, and a wonderful stress buster.

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    Great to have you back!

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    3162 days ago
  • CATS_MEOW_0911
    HELLLLOOOOOO TARA!

    I'm proud of you for applying for that job--like you said, you are putting yourself out there, and that's all we can do to move towards change, right?

    Can't wait to hear about the strength training! And I know, what is it about stress making us NOT want to play our musical instruments--that's when we need it most!
    3162 days ago
  • SUNFLOWERSAVAGE
    Sooooo glad to see you are back..I've missed you!
    Congratulations for getting your application in for that job. Even if you feel like you aren't going to get it, it is great that you are reaching for something you want.
    Let us know how it goes.

    Nice to have you back Tara!

    emoticon ~D
    3162 days ago
  • LIBELULITA
    Welcome back!!!! Fingers,toes and eyes crossed that you get the job emoticon emoticon
    3162 days ago
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