Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I sent off my CV tonight, so I've done it! I applied for a job I really want and probably won't get, put myself out there, took a risk, told my boss that I was applying…. It's an internal position, so I had to tell him, even though I know the chance that I'll get the job is very remote.
This past week and a half have been so stressful. All these crazy weird insecurities came bubbling up to the surface. So many confusing thoughts and feelings around self-worth!
I had a few low points with eating, but it never got as bad as it used to. Even at my most stressed, I remembered how much I love this new way of eating and all these wonderful changes in my body.
And I've had some amazing exercise breakthroughs that I promise to blog about soon! Strength training is LIFE-ALTERING -- WOOOOOT!
I am sooooo looking forward to getting back to Sparking! When I'm stressed out, I become very mono-focused. I didn't play my cello very often, barely visited with friends -- just worked on my application and procrastinated working on my application by watching trashy TV and cleaning the house. I continued to track food intake, even what I ate from the jar by the heaping tablespoonful. 'Nuff said.
So many blogs to catch up on reading! So many people to say hello to! I missed you all, and am sorry for not responding to goodies and comments on my page…. I'll catch up with you lovely folks soon!
Lots of love,