Keeping the Spark Alive in December
Friday, December 02, 2011
I'm coming to grips with the idea that I don't get to get better and feel great this week. I'm on day 10 of what will be an 18 day course of antibiotics. The antibiotic Cipro can cause muscle and tendon damage, which means that I MUST take it easy on the joints. Particularly the achilles, the tendon most prone to rupture. I get rather frightened when faced with the prospect of no running or feeling ill, because I have a high-stress and pressure job and feeling ill makes me scared I won't perform well enough to keep it.
So, I realize that I have no choice but to not feel my best. And to not be able to work out or run hard to burn off the stress. Essentially, I need to get my head together and get through December by rationalizing my way through it. I have a plan to keep focused on what I CAN control and what will do my current body and mind the best:
- Plenty of sleep. If the laundry and other tasks must pile up to get at least 8 hours, so be it. SLEEP is priority 1. I've noticed a definite need for a lot of sleep lately.
- Avoid sweets and push fresh foods. Understand that these won't overcome the ill feelings, necessarily, but that they are money in the bank for when I am restored.
- Focus on CONSISTENCY and gentle exercise that involves my daughter. She's the one I'm more concerned about as far as cholesterol and blood sugar. Just keep plowing through this month of low/no grain cooking and feed her lots of good proteins and even more veggies and fruits of delicious variety.
- Calm the hell down. Sell this to myself as "Be sweet to Joy Month" rather than constantly being angry with myself for not getting scads done. Be sweet to Joy. Be sweet to Savannah. Pretend I'm easygoing. Fake it until I make it. Show up to work, stay focused at the desk. But get up and walk outside for 10 minutes around noon.
- Gentle stretch before bed 10 minutes.
Try and forgive myself continuously for not getting everything done. Focus on the important one thing. Do it. Lay back unless I feel like doing more.
Know that better days will come and that I'll be strong again. Maybe stronger. Forgiveness of myself.