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Tuesday, December 06, 2011

Well I started dieting.. life style change a week ago. But now I am going to try to write and record my journey as I go. Hopefully I can look back at where I was, when I need motivation to continue.

I am currently off of work due to an injury, which makes it difficult to exercise due to pain and restrictions from the doctor. I WOULD love to be able to go to the gym and feel myself sweat.. feels like I am doing something.

I have always been overweight for as long as I can remember. Growing up my dad had a really bad temper, and put my sisters and I down ALOT. so out of that I got a really bad self-esteem. Since I met my husband 3 years ago, it has gotten much better, but I still feel gross ALL the time, there isn't a time I look in the mirror and think man I LOOK GOOD!! I know I have to be able to make changes with myself, not just with my weight to change this. But I need to be able to do little things like run to a local store for cute in-style clothes, and not have to drive a half hour to a mall. I want to be able to run with my nieces and nephew, without getting winded 5 steps in. But most of all. The doctor tells I am too overweight in order to conceive a baby. WHICH BREAKS MY HEART!! I want to have a baby so bad it hurts to see other pregnant people, and think to myself, if only I could lose weight I might be able to be in that spot.

One of my huge stress-ers is my sister, which is virtually my best friend.. is deployed and in Kuwait right now. She was my go to person for everything. Without her tends to get quite lonely. I told her I would lose 60 lbs before she comes home in MAY. I would like to be able to prove to her I can do it!
Well enough blabbing.

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MIDDLTEACH
Erin, you have lots and lots of motivators. Good luck with your weight loss- you CAN do it!

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FITFABME2
It will be difficult I am sure to overcome your self esteem issues....but it can be done and you can do it. You've come to the right place. And congrats on selecting a great husband....that is sometimes hard to do when growing up with a critical dad. Kudos to you!
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You know, I really think you can do it. Sometimes I feel like a failure too, when it comes to weight loss. just remember to put all that aside, and stick to your exercise and life style changes. You can do it. I'm confident you will lose that 60 pounds before she returns. Keep us updated!
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ILIKESONGS
Why can't you? Why can't you lose 60 pounds before your sister comes home? I do not think for one minute that if you lost 54 pounds that your sister would think that you failed her. You aren't really proving it to her. You are proving it to you. That you think that you are worth it to lose the weight. That you want to be healthy to have a baby. I'm pretty sure I am preaching to the choir here. But the fact is you can do it. I don't know what injury you have but there is probably some form of exercise that you can do.Can you swim? Can you walk? Can you shadow box or do some weight lifting with your arm? Ask your doctor. And if there isn't right now, then it's a great time to focus on your eating. And drinking water. If you can work on those right now you won't be so overwhelmed with trying to do it all at once.

You can do this. If there is one thing I love about sparkpeople, it's the fact that complete strangers from all over the country and world can support each other in the journey that we are on. It's not easy, but it will be worth it.

I don't know your beliefs, but there is a book called Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst that has really helped me with the emotional side of the weight loss journey. It's about craving God more than food.

It's in you. The chance to make yourself shine. To go after your dreams and accomplish it. You might not feel like it, but it is :) I have been on this site since 2007. I have yo-yo-ed up and down and up and down and am back to the starting line. And yet I keep starting. You can do it :)

Dena
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BEMORESTUBBORN
Erin, welcome! You have some wonderful motivations for losing weight and getting fit. Give it your all and believe in yourself. The results will be worth every bit of effort.

Best wishes!
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CHRISTIANSMA
You can do it! Just remember how proud she's going to be in may when she sees how much work you've put in to be healthier! Diet is the biggest part, you CAN do it!
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